the inevitable return of the great white dope.

Aug 11, 2006 12:07

man, been a little while since i updated. huh. when there's nothing going on, i have plenty of time to update and nothing to say. when shit is going crazy, i have too much to say, but no time to say it.

WHY MUST YOU BE SO COMPLICATED, JOURNAL?!

anyway, i'm busy lately. working a lot. looking into getting funding to go back to school. playing videogames. the usual stuff.

i'm bigtime into the "get back to school, fucking moron" project. i haven't ever applied for financial aid of any kind before. i had previously always paid my tuition up-front in cash -- because my tuition was $1080/semester. fucking sweet. now the tuition at the same school (which is where i almost certainly would go) has more than doubled. and i don't live with my parents. and i have a $1000/day coke habit. i have expenses, man.

that coke habit thing was a joke. i'm really only spending a few hundred a day. i know a guy who knows a guy.

the big stumbling block for me to go back was never the money. it was the direction... or lack thereof. unless i KNEW what i was attending school for... i didn't attend. now, i think i have decided.

education.

HOW FUCKING FUNNY IS THAT?!

i hate kids. ah, that's not true. i don't love kids, but i don't hate them. i do, however, love to instruct and to learn. i never EVER considered that career path until very recently at my last job when i had basically hired a small room full of high school students. these kids don't know ANYTHING. and i actually enjoyed developing relationships with them and helping them with whatever was going on, work related or not. strange experience.

the main thing that will keep me out of school? money. i spend a lot, and i will have to cut WAY back to be a poor college student. if i have to work full time and go to school full time... i just won't. i know that even if i go into that situation with the best intentions... i won't follow through on that. because i'm a jackass. so i need to see what the maximum amount (grants, loans, work study, blah blah) that i qualify for to see if i can live on that plus some money from part time work on the weekends or something.

anyway, i'm currently jumping through rows and rows of government hoops to see what's up with the financial aid situation. when i have more news, i will update. eventually. maybe.

man, i'm flaky.

-jim
really, i just want summers off.
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