To Dying in Anothers Arms and Why I had to Try It.
So...I've decided that there are a bunch of things I have to do, in no particular order, to get my crap together. And by gumption I inted to do them. One of them is updating my journal more than once a month. So with this entry I've already met that goal!
WOOHOO!
Yeah okay thats probably kind of cheating but every goal I meet, big or small, makes the next one easier. Let me explain.
I have had ADD most of my life. There was a time where my parents helped me manage it and get it under control, and even a time where I was medicated for it. Now...my parents no longer help me and by Royal Decree of Them (RDOT for short henceforth) I am no longer allowed to self medicate with caffinated beverages except in rare circumstances
(Incidentally, anyone who thinks caffine isn't a drug, don't have any for 3 1/2 weeks and then have a soda and get back to me.)
So now, here I am, all growned up..trying to lead a life where I actually accomplish things..and finding myself largely frustrated because my brain can't focus on one thing at a time for anything. I've decided that I don't want to be frustrated anymore..and I'm taking steps to make it so that I'm not.
which means LISTS...LOTS AND LOTS OF LISTS...YAAAAAAAAAY!! WE'RE DOOOOOOOOOOOOMED!!
...but maybe not. It is with great pride that I say I actually finished a whole list yesterday at work. I made a 9 item list...had another item added to it by my boss...and completed the whole thing. No cheating..no pushing anything till later (except for one thing that had to be pushed to later because the training module wasn't avalible)..just....done.
The feeling of satisfaction is...actually pretty overwhelming. It makes me believe I might actually get myself together and get things done the way I know I can. Today I have to make a bunch of phone calls, fill in my daily planner with appointments, and go to the bank and open a new account.
I also want to write a list of things I would like to do every morning and every evening and try and pick away at making a routine for myself. I'm happy to say for the first time in a while I actually believe I can do that.
Work at my new store is so much happier it's sick. I love my job again and its showing in my work. People are happier around me and we all laugh and have a good time..and I've only been there for three days. I think it's going to make me a much better manager. I had to miss therapy this week due to schedule conflict, which was a bummer, but my boss is really tried to help, it just wasn't possible. I actually can't wait to go to work which is a nice feeling.
This weekend we get to game for the first time in FOREVER!!! I have to pick a day in August to ask off for, but since I already have vacation days planned it might be tight..maybe I can get a Sunday earlier on...like the 15th.
Anyway, I think I'm just rambling now..and I have those calls to make..but...yay.
WOOHOO!
Yeah okay thats probably kind of cheating but every goal I meet, big or small, makes the next one easier. Let me explain.
I have had ADD most of my life. There was a time where my parents helped me manage it and get it under control, and even a time where I was medicated for it. Now...my parents no longer help me and by Royal Decree of Them (RDOT for short henceforth) I am no longer allowed to self medicate with caffinated beverages except in rare circumstances
(Incidentally, anyone who thinks caffine isn't a drug, don't have any for 3 1/2 weeks and then have a soda and get back to me.)
So now, here I am, all growned up..trying to lead a life where I actually accomplish things..and finding myself largely frustrated because my brain can't focus on one thing at a time for anything. I've decided that I don't want to be frustrated anymore..and I'm taking steps to make it so that I'm not.
which means LISTS...LOTS AND LOTS OF LISTS...YAAAAAAAAAY!! WE'RE DOOOOOOOOOOOOMED!!
...but maybe not. It is with great pride that I say I actually finished a whole list yesterday at work. I made a 9 item list...had another item added to it by my boss...and completed the whole thing. No cheating..no pushing anything till later (except for one thing that had to be pushed to later because the training module wasn't avalible)..just....done.
The feeling of satisfaction is...actually pretty overwhelming. It makes me believe I might actually get myself together and get things done the way I know I can. Today I have to make a bunch of phone calls, fill in my daily planner with appointments, and go to the bank and open a new account.
I also want to write a list of things I would like to do every morning and every evening and try and pick away at making a routine for myself. I'm happy to say for the first time in a while I actually believe I can do that.
Work at my new store is so much happier it's sick. I love my job again and its showing in my work. People are happier around me and we all laugh and have a good time..and I've only been there for three days. I think it's going to make me a much better manager. I had to miss therapy this week due to schedule conflict, which was a bummer, but my boss is really tried to help, it just wasn't possible. I actually can't wait to go to work which is a nice feeling.
This weekend we get to game for the first time in FOREVER!!! I have to pick a day in August to ask off for, but since I already have vacation days planned it might be tight..maybe I can get a Sunday earlier on...like the 15th.
Anyway, I think I'm just rambling now..and I have those calls to make..but...yay.