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I try and I try to be profound, and I find myself measuring my miss by how much I tried.
You know, I'm not as world-weary as I seem. In fact, I am only nominally so.
I had a dream in February of this year about taking a physics test with a multiple choice section that had only four problems worth ten points each. I'm freaking out, until I realize the first question is about Franklin Delano Roosevelt, and the test is titled, "FDR and Other 3-Letter Presidents." I think - OK, I took U.S. History this summer, I can do this. The first question is: "What was FDR in his former life?" I answer, without a doubt in my mind: "A.) A carny." One part of me is disturbed that I am sure of something so unknown and likely false, but mostly it makes perfect sense.
Life feels a lot like this right now. You study so hard for something you expect, the unexpected surprises you within the realm of the expected. You convince yourself you know enough to be okay, you surprise yourself by knowing more than enough. What you know may or may not be correct - it's a primal instinct, but it's all you've got.
Living up to myself is not.
You know, I'm not as world-weary as I seem. In fact, I am only nominally so.
I had a dream in February of this year about taking a physics test with a multiple choice section that had only four problems worth ten points each. I'm freaking out, until I realize the first question is about Franklin Delano Roosevelt, and the test is titled, "FDR and Other 3-Letter Presidents." I think - OK, I took U.S. History this summer, I can do this. The first question is: "What was FDR in his former life?" I answer, without a doubt in my mind: "A.) A carny." One part of me is disturbed that I am sure of something so unknown and likely false, but mostly it makes perfect sense.
Life feels a lot like this right now. You study so hard for something you expect, the unexpected surprises you within the realm of the expected. You convince yourself you know enough to be okay, you surprise yourself by knowing more than enough. What you know may or may not be correct - it's a primal instinct, but it's all you've got.
Living up to myself is not.