sigh
1.
I don't know what's going on with my unemployment insurance. I've looked at the report in my file and they've received my requests but it looks like they denied me...? WTF I didn't quit; they let me go. Must talk to them next week. Jesus, maybe it's just because they've had a look-see at my bank account and I'm not exactly broke. Should I be broke? Maybe I'll transfer all my monies to a bank abroad. Sweden, I hear, is the way to go. Then again that'd raise flags since um 10K+ transfers apparently do that.
I'm not rich okay. I just don't spend much. fyi.
2.
Waiting is stressful. I've got my teaching certificate coming in the mail so if I don't get this job then it'll be such a waste. They told me it could take a while to get a yea or a nay. I've had chaotic nights in my head worrying. Nearly sleepless nights. Other times I'm teaching kids and all hell breaks loose and I'm terrified that I'd be a terrible teacher.
3.
I hate being stuck in limbo. I could never say it enough. It sucks.
4.
I've hit another writer's block, I think. Catalyst was going so well with chapter six and then suddenly I write the beginning of chapter seven and that's when I knew this chapter was going to be hell to write. I hate writing filler chapters. They're just... there. I'd probably look back on it later and go "Oh, Christ, tear that one apart, it's such shit".
5.
Creativity is a beautiful thing. Also quite changing. Ephemeral. How to keep it breathing? I know how. Keep writing, keep abreast of trends, keep yourself informed, keep reading, keep looking around. In theory it's super; in real life it's a pain in the neck.
I don't know what's going on with my unemployment insurance. I've looked at the report in my file and they've received my requests but it looks like they denied me...? WTF I didn't quit; they let me go. Must talk to them next week. Jesus, maybe it's just because they've had a look-see at my bank account and I'm not exactly broke. Should I be broke? Maybe I'll transfer all my monies to a bank abroad. Sweden, I hear, is the way to go. Then again that'd raise flags since um 10K+ transfers apparently do that.
I'm not rich okay. I just don't spend much. fyi.
2.
Waiting is stressful. I've got my teaching certificate coming in the mail so if I don't get this job then it'll be such a waste. They told me it could take a while to get a yea or a nay. I've had chaotic nights in my head worrying. Nearly sleepless nights. Other times I'm teaching kids and all hell breaks loose and I'm terrified that I'd be a terrible teacher.
3.
I hate being stuck in limbo. I could never say it enough. It sucks.
4.
I've hit another writer's block, I think. Catalyst was going so well with chapter six and then suddenly I write the beginning of chapter seven and that's when I knew this chapter was going to be hell to write. I hate writing filler chapters. They're just... there. I'd probably look back on it later and go "Oh, Christ, tear that one apart, it's such shit".
5.
Creativity is a beautiful thing. Also quite changing. Ephemeral. How to keep it breathing? I know how. Keep writing, keep abreast of trends, keep yourself informed, keep reading, keep looking around. In theory it's super; in real life it's a pain in the neck.