on the subject of love... I fail dismally.
Oh geez, I forgot I'd typed this before dinner, after a call from Amy. Well, here goes.
Great. Now I've managed to freak the shit out of my sister. Apparently, I'm not allowed to think back on the past.
Periodically doing a little bit of introspection is, apparently, sick. "Don't do this to yourself, it's been years, get over it, I can't understand people who think back on the past, yadda yadda..." What pisses me off about it is that I know she breaks down every once in a while. So why's it different with me? Because I don't have a loved one to turn to? What a load of bull. I know she wants to protect me, but that's just hypocritical of her.
She wants me to throw myself at a boy I've had a crush on since... gosh, is it 12 years? *shuffles foot* First she found him cute and totally date material for me years ago, then she was like "eww" 'cause he looked too "Jewish" for her *facepalm*, and now she's telling me to go for it... while I know for a fact that he's quite the partygoer and ladies' man, from what I can gather. We haven't talked much ever, and when we did it was stuff like "Umm, hi... I guess we have to practise this judo stuff eh? *nervous giggle* *lies down* Okay so your hands go here and now... No, no, that's all right, just a little too hard, try again. Okay, maybe a little tighter? Right, now press." (I'm talking about choking here, you dirty minds! ;)
LOL his little sister remarked numerous times that judo, or at least ground techniques, "look like sex". And it's quite true, but whatever. Besides, she hated being there in the first place. Of course she'd find something to make a running commentary on... :s
Considering I've kicked him probably twice where it counts (accident! I swear!) while trying a sacrifice technique... Yeah. We talked a bit last year in French omg and it was all about "how are you / what are you studying..." that sort of thing, so, sure, it wasn't horrible or anything, but. Gah. There's also the fact that his father tried to match us when we were younger so that was pretty darn embarrassing at 9-10! "You want me to pay for the movie?" lol I love the man but haha that was a low blow, even from a psychologist! But anyway. Crush doesn't want to come back to judo, so no hanging out can be done to see if I can get some vibes from him. Apart from that, we have nothing really in common *sigh*
She (Amy that is) also wanted to match me with one of her friends, then retracted when she found out he was a partygoer, too. And let loose with girls.
So anyway. Amy's always been my staunchest supporter, and always means well, but she nevertheless never fails to make me feel like a bumbling idiot. Eh.
Also, we talked about other stuff I should have just kept to myself. Ugh. Stupid. Confused. Shouldn't have said, it just made her weirded out at me and she'll totally demand Jo give me a firm talk. Ugh ugh ugh. Sisters! They totally gang up on you!
ALL THAT ASIDE I'm still feeling good about things, don't you guys worry ;) My love life just sucks, ladies and gents. That is all.
Great. Now I've managed to freak the shit out of my sister. Apparently, I'm not allowed to think back on the past.
Periodically doing a little bit of introspection is, apparently, sick. "Don't do this to yourself, it's been years, get over it, I can't understand people who think back on the past, yadda yadda..." What pisses me off about it is that I know she breaks down every once in a while. So why's it different with me? Because I don't have a loved one to turn to? What a load of bull. I know she wants to protect me, but that's just hypocritical of her.
She wants me to throw myself at a boy I've had a crush on since... gosh, is it 12 years? *shuffles foot* First she found him cute and totally date material for me years ago, then she was like "eww" 'cause he looked too "Jewish" for her *facepalm*, and now she's telling me to go for it... while I know for a fact that he's quite the partygoer and ladies' man, from what I can gather. We haven't talked much ever, and when we did it was stuff like "Umm, hi... I guess we have to practise this judo stuff eh? *nervous giggle* *lies down* Okay so your hands go here and now... No, no, that's all right, just a little too hard, try again. Okay, maybe a little tighter? Right, now press." (I'm talking about choking here, you dirty minds! ;)
LOL his little sister remarked numerous times that judo, or at least ground techniques, "look like sex". And it's quite true, but whatever. Besides, she hated being there in the first place. Of course she'd find something to make a running commentary on... :s
Considering I've kicked him probably twice where it counts (accident! I swear!) while trying a sacrifice technique... Yeah. We talked a bit last year in French omg and it was all about "how are you / what are you studying..." that sort of thing, so, sure, it wasn't horrible or anything, but. Gah. There's also the fact that his father tried to match us when we were younger so that was pretty darn embarrassing at 9-10! "You want me to pay for the movie?" lol I love the man but haha that was a low blow, even from a psychologist! But anyway. Crush doesn't want to come back to judo, so no hanging out can be done to see if I can get some vibes from him. Apart from that, we have nothing really in common *sigh*
She (Amy that is) also wanted to match me with one of her friends, then retracted when she found out he was a partygoer, too. And let loose with girls.
So anyway. Amy's always been my staunchest supporter, and always means well, but she nevertheless never fails to make me feel like a bumbling idiot. Eh.
Also, we talked about other stuff I should have just kept to myself. Ugh. Stupid. Confused. Shouldn't have said, it just made her weirded out at me and she'll totally demand Jo give me a firm talk. Ugh ugh ugh. Sisters! They totally gang up on you!
ALL THAT ASIDE I'm still feeling good about things, don't you guys worry ;) My love life just sucks, ladies and gents. That is all.