you always let me go | a mix for amelia pond
you always let me go | a mix for amelia pond
i. MEDCINE MAN | the hush sound; medicine man, i lay my head in your hands, medicine man, can you hear my mind, medicine man, can you hear my body, medicine man, can you heaer my cry, i don't want to be the one, the one, the one that you forget, i don't, i don't, i don't just want to be your regret, i don't know where to begin, i don't know how to shake the battle i'm living in, do anything to take away the memory of him, can't you see that i have no way out, don't leave me now
ii. TRANSATLANTICISM | death cab for cutie; most people were overjoyed, they took to their boats, i thought it less like a lake, and more like a moat, the rhythm of my footsteps crossing flatlands to your door have been silenced forever more, the distance is quite simply much too far for me to row, it seems farther than ever before
iii. LEFT AND LEAVING | the weakerthans; my city's still breathing but barely, it's true, through buildings gone missing like teeth, the sidewalks are watching me think about you, sparkled with broken glass, i'm back with scars to show, back with the streets i know will never take me anywhere but here, the stain in the carpet, this drink in my hand, the stranger whose faces i know, we meet here for our dress rehearsal to say i wanted it this way, wait for the year to drown, spring forward, fall back down, i'm trying not wonder where you are, all this time lingers undefined, someone choose who's left and who's leaving, memory will rust and erode into lists of all that you gave me, the blanket, some matches, this pain in my chest, the best parts of lonely, duck tape and sodered wires, new words for old desires, and birthday card i threw away, i wait in four/four time, count yellow highway lines that you're relying on to lead you home
iv. YOU WERE A KINDNESS | the national; i was in a fog, i didn't notice everything was coming all apart inside of me, there wasn't anyway for anyone to settle in, you made a slow disaster out of me, there's a radiant darkness upon us, i don't want you to worry, i was careful, but nothing is harmless, baby, you better hurry, you were a kindness when i was a stranger, but i wouldn't ask for what i didn't need, everything's weird and we're always in danger, why would you shatter somebody like me, it doesn't work that way, wanting not to want you won't make it so, it doesn't work that way, don't leave me here alone
v. TOO LATE | M83; like a wall of stars, we are ripe to fall, and if you are a ghost, i'll call your name again, and if you are a ghost, i'll call your name
vi. THE CAPTAIN AND THE HOURGLASS; laura marling; the captain's got his boots on and he's heading out the door, leaving his lady alone, thinking he don't love me no more, he's done with all this bullshit, he's heading back to war, if heaven is as heaven does then this is hell for sure
vii. LANDFILL | daughter; throw me in the landfill, don't think about the consequences, throw me in the dirt pit, don't think about the choices that you made, throw me in the water, don't think about the splash i will create, leave me at the altar, knowing all the things you just escaped, push me out to see on a little boat that you made out of the evergreen, that you helped your father cut away, leave me on the tracks to wait until the morning train arrives, don't you dare look back, walk away, catch up with the sunrise, cos this is torturous, electricity between both of us, and this is dangerous, cos i want you so much, but i hate your guts, i hate you, so leave me in the cold, wait until the snow covers me up so i cannot move, so i'm just embedded in the frost, then leave me in the rain, wait until my clothes cling to my frame, wipe away your tearstains, thought you said you didn't feel pain, well, this is torturous, electricity between both of us, and this is dangerous, cos i want you so much, but i hate your guts, i want you so much, but i hate your guts
viii. BOYFRIEND | marina and the diamonds; when i was your girl, you always let me go, i took you places you ain't been before, said take a chance or you'll never know, cos you had money in your hands that you had to blow, boyfriend, boyfriend, you could be my boyfriend, could've been my boy to the world then, i like to be everything you want, hey, boy, let me talk to you, when i was your girlfriend, you always let me go, kept me on your arm, boy, so you weren't left alone, you could've been a better man anytime you want, but when i was your girlfriend, i always felt alone, i always felt alone, you tell me what you like, tell me what you don't, you were my life, all across the globe, and i don't like to fight, and you already know, you made me bright like the winter snow, boyfriend, boyfriend, you could be my boyfriend, could've been my boy to the world then, i like to be everything you want, hey, boy, let me talk to you, when i was your girlfriend, you always let me go, kept me on your arm, boy, so you weren't left alone, you could've been a better man anytime you want, but when i was your girlfriend, i always felt alone, i always felt alone, i gave you a chance, you're all i needed, boy, spent a month with me, boy, never calling me your girlfriend, if you were my man, i'd never leave you, boy, but you won't ever love or treat me right, w, boyfriend, boyfriend, you could be my boyfriend, could've been my boy to the world then, i like to be everything you want, hey, boy, let me talk to you, when i was your girlfriend, you always let me go, kept me on your arm, boy, so you weren't left alone, you could've been a better man anytime you want, but when i was your girlfriend, i always felt alone, i always felt alone
ix. WANTED | vanessa carlton; i have wandered far and wide for something real, something to die for, but i have found you, and you do not see all that is me, all that is true, i am more than you will see, i am more than you will need, i am more than you will see, more than wanted, and as you float the flimsy surface, you should know life lies beneath it, and don't pretend you feel what i feel, you live illusion and i'm real, i am more than you will see, i am more than you will need, i am more than you will see, more than wanted, i know, i know you like the way you feel when i play, i know, i know you don't really hear what i say, i know, i know you are waiting for something to rain, i know, i know you wish you could be more than you say, i have wandered far and wide for something real, something to die for, but i have found you, and you do not see all that is me, all that is true, i am more than you will see, i am more than you will need, i am more than you will see, more than wanted, and as you float the flimsy surface, you should know life lies beneath it, and don't pretend you feel what i feel, you live illusion and i'm real, i am more than you will see, i am more than you will need, i am more than you will see, more than wanted, more than you'll love, more than you'll love, more than you'll hold, more than wanted, more than you'll crave, more than you'll cherish, more than you'll have, more than wanted
bonus (to amy, love the doctor). LEAVING BLUES | bombay bicyle club; now you're back's to the road, the waiting's everything you know, i'm sure you know that i'm leaving, writing home every day, sure, in a cinematic way, breaking the smoke of the train, keep the thought of you aflame, i'm sure you know that i'm leaving, curse god for my regret, i miss you indefinite, not once did i think that love would stay til i came back.
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