I'm never going to drink again

[stormmm]

until tonight. I didn't realize how drunk I actually was last night. I didn't drive - don't worry. You may ask how I got soo drunk in such a short amount of time. (about 2 hours). Maker's Mark splash of water, empty bar, and great company. I slowly sipped the liquid gold for 2 hours, but bourbon will put some syrup on your tongue and some worms in your stomach in the morning. I am so tired.. I need to get over it.

I know I shouldn't feel bad, but I do feel bad about talking to Nick. I feel like such a hypocrite. I guess you just don't choose how you are going to feel about something emotional. I'm a wreck in that department. Actually, my entire life is a wreck right now!