Limitations
Limitations percieved and otherwise are driving me crazy. I am used to solving problems with a lower your head and crash into the wall kind of approach, and its just not working for me right now. My mother had a continuous excruciating headache for five days. Because of my health no one wants to bother me, but no one is stepping up and making bher go to the hospital either, finally my brother calls me, I drive directly to her apartment, take one look at her and know we have a serious problem. I package her off to the emergency room get her a catscan and two MRIs and sit with her in the hospital all weekend, until sunday night they decide that its shingles attacking her optix nerve, and boot me from the hospital because 1, exposure to shingles is bad for a cancer survivor, b. my post heart attack immune system is still compromised, and C. I look like shit because struggling with this while I am unacceptably week has exhausted my resources. So tonight I will go home and sleep after work, but this is intollerable, I need to be able to do the things that need to be done in my life. I just want to hit something, and blast writing it down has not made me feel better.