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im hurting, scared... all the mean things some one can say and the words chosen this time were that of honesty and they hurt the most. I am a regret, i failed as a wife, i am a dissapointment, and there is much better out there. I was a waist of 10 years. i am truly a horrable person. and although he calls me to tell me these things, i am the one being mean because I get angery from the hurt of the words and I respond by cursing. The words of wishing me dead ring loudly in my ears. Last Nov he was speaking of his feelings for me, and I was hurt but accepted it as the way he is when he is drunk. IT seems those words spoken during the drunken periods were words of honesty. He doesnt like me much. All I can say at this point is, I get it. I see my faults, I understand his views and Im sorry. As he reminds me I gave up a really good thing by "throwing him out like trash" and I walked away from a wonderful person.
maybe its true maybe its not. at this point it doesnt really matter. I lost all battles, I have the wounds to show it.
I find myself alone and although my parents tell me Im not cause they are always there, i am and I always will be.....
maybe its true maybe its not. at this point it doesnt really matter. I lost all battles, I have the wounds to show it.
I find myself alone and although my parents tell me Im not cause they are always there, i am and I always will be.....