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As we suspected might happen, Miriam's contract with the university will not be renewed in August. Since she is currently our only source of income, we are deciding what to do next. We could:
*Stay in Regina and find new income, somehow?
*Find new employment for Miriam or myself and move to wherever that is.
*Move in with Miriam's parents until we accomplish the preceding and move to the new job.
Moving in with my mother is not an option, in large part because we would not have health care in the United States.
One seems unlikely. Two is more likely, but I'm not holding my breath (though I'm continuing to apply for jobs). 3 seems to be the most likely outcome for us.
So I'm going to start trying to do some packing up and getting ready to move. I expect that most of the stuff here will go into storage. It will probably stay there until we find a place to live that's more stable than with Miriam's parents. I would dearly love more stability in my life, but many of the jobs I'm applying for are term positions, so when I find something I may *still* not have the kind of stability that would make moving all my stuff across a country seem reasonable, let alone getting the rest of my stuff from my mother's place. I guess this is my life.
So we're trying to figure out a bunch of things. The mortgage on our condo is due for renewal in August as well so we need to figure out a bunch of stuff in relation to that. How much the new payment will be. How long it might take to sell the place here and how much it would be worth. Whether it make sense to try to hire a property management company to manage it as a rental instead of selling. Neither of us planned to be landlords and I honestly feel like the use of simple ownership of property as a source of income is unethical, but just as there is no ethical consumption under capitalism, there is in large part no way to just exist in a capitalist system ethically and we are trying to do our best.
I messaged Montana Girl today and said that, maybe, before I move away, I'd take a trip to see weird tourist stuff between here and Billings and visit her in person once before I go and she liked that idea. But it's possible that, afterward, I said some things about how everyone deserves access to healthcare regardless of immigration status that may have upset her, so I don't know. I've been really enjoying talking with her up until now.
There are, of course, other concerns too.
Continuity of medical care for Miriam is one of the foremost things, since her health and pain and uncertainty have been shaping our lives. She doesn't have a diagnosis yet and is not likely to have one before August. MRIs have been requisitioned by her rheumatologist, but they or may not be done before August. Either way, we'd have to find a new rheumatologist who doesn't suck like the first one did if we moved somewhere new and hope that they would continue on her case.
Also of importance to me is that if I move out of province, I think I'll probably lose my place on the waiting list for bottom surgery and have to start over again somewhere else. Then, I may not be wherever that is long enough to get to the front of the line and I'd have to start over again in a third (and fourth...) place. If that happens, I'm probably going to get my nipples pierced as a consolation prize :3
I dunno if there's much else to say right now. Miriam and I have been through so much in the past few years and we'll get through this and more stress and instability in the future too. I'm just so tired.