im getting yelled at for not sitting like a lady...i dont want to cross my legs 24/7...im a man now
fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. What is wrong with me? everything is wrong with me....im being such a bitch lately and i feel terrible right now. my poppy (grandpa) died on thanksgiving...i havent told anyone that thats who it was but now i am...uhhh it sucks so much. i feel so bad for my parents. when me jess and phil went to see him we got kicked out because a stupid old black man complained that there were too many people in the room...uhh i really want to shoot him in the face. to make things even better i had some kind of alergy and my eyes got really big and it just was horrible. and i had to read at the church thing. my dad got me benadryl and it isnt working. i took way too many teaspoons of it and now im just tired as hell. i didnt go to school today and i might not go tomorrow either if my eyes are still like this. My aunt said that it may be from stress and holding in emotions. i agree with her and its strange to agree with someone that i can hardly stand. i am holding in emotions and its dumb i never tell anyone how i feel....starting today everythings going to be different.