WHY CAN'T IT ALL JUST GO AWAY...
frustrated.sad.hurt.lonely.confused.forgotten.rejected....i'm killing inside...you called today...there was so much that i wanted to tell you...it hurt too bad though...i know you've moved on and believe me i am trying...it's just the little memories...it's just the little things that keep playing in my mind...i wanted to appear happy...i wanted you not to see the pain...i know it was obvious, just remember i tried...i wanted to say i loved you, but i know that i can't...i wanted to say i missed you so much, but i know that you've left for good...i am trying to be strong...trying to be free...but the hurt keeps coming back so unexpectedly...remember watching the stars...remember all the crazy times...i felt so dumb that i just couldn't talk...the words kept wanting to come, but i was too afraid to talk...what am i to say? that i still cry...that the pain is still not gone...that i hate the fact that it's so easy to forget me...i have so much i wanted to say, but it came out so few...i still care about you..i always will...just don't forget about me because i am so afraid you will....why do things have to be this way?...why couldn't you just love me