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You know i wouldnt be able to sleep tonight knowing your not around..so im going to sit here and think about all the time we spent together over the years...starting from the begining... I met you 7th grade because larry introduced me to you. We didnt talk a whole lot because it was the end of the year. Then 8th came around Me you and larry were stuck in eachothers ass...Staying up really late on the weekends watching music videos and making fun of sugar ray..."YA KNOW WHAT I MEAN"...lol...fun times...TO that damn tool song schism and you putting on that mask and acting all crazy spitting the water out and the mask was never worn again because it smelled like the inside of an ass. When we used to set up the wrestling mats and do flips off the chairs onto it...haha..and you didnt make it one time because you slammed your head into the celing and smacked straight into the floor..and layed there for a long time trying to figure out what just happened.haha..the mark from your hat is still in the ceiling at larrys from that. Us stealing porn from eachother when we couldve just asked to borrow it..were retarded. Awesome Threesome all the way... Then summer after 8th grade came along and we started getting super close. We started writing music together..remember the song close your eyes with the really cool ass techno beat..Ive been looking for that tape forever but i just cant seem to find it. You would be like..."Yeah im going to come stay the night friday night then someones picking me up saturday...but you would be at my house for weeks at a time...but you knew that you were welcome anytime so it didnt matter. We wouldnt leave my room in the basement for anything. We would just write and write and write...haha..Do you know how many of those damn tapes i had to buy...way too many..you know how many i have left...4...you know what i did today...i listened to them...and you know what...it was the most god awful shit ive ever heard in my life...but it made me so happy to hear us fucking around...we thought we were the shit..we didnt care we were having fun..and we continued on with that for years to come...with a little progression..but i cant seem to find any of those tapes. Remember ambers b day party when she rented out sun valley and the band that was supposed to play didnt show up so me and you went and got our shit and played for everyone that was there...we owned. Then a little time passes by..we start hanging out all over again. We go to the used show and I you intoduced me to whitt...and you got to meet kat. All those god damn tek world shows we went to..and more then half of them were horrible...the first time i moshed was with you there...lol...We thought we were the shit because you dad knew chris from flaw...now i think about that and just bow my head and shake it in shame...lol...you know what i mean...thats when we started getting to know all of the people that know us today. Most of them are friends that stuck but there were a few that had some and gone. Then amanda and ashley came into the picture with us and that was our crew...Us four were always together. we used to take her camera and do stupid shit like light my guitar on fire and just be some of the most random people ever..i miss it man. Remember when you were sad about something with ashley and i put the box on my head with the lighter and i popped up out of nowhere and starting singing buried myself alive and you starting rolling your ass off...and then a few weeks later i wake up in the morning and your retarded ass is hanging halfway out of my guitar gig bag flapping around screaming "im a fish out of water, im a fish out of water"..who knows how long you were laying in my bag for. Then we went through alot more shows and again were back to writing. Freshman orientation or sophmore i dont remember but at one of those me you and Katie Flowers ran around the school and i stole a Rolly chair out of a room and we were pushing eacother up and down the hallways...haha...i didnt want to part with that chair. We also played spies and hopsctoch on the tile floors. Those were the good old days for sure..and im glad i can still remember every bit of it...then you moved to indiana and we kept in touch but didnt see eachother for awhile..then you come back and drink all of our choclate milk and we blamed it on tommy...oh darn(saracasm)...lol..Then my mom moved to indiana and you taught me the art of TARC which i have passed on to a few friends along the way. somewhere in the mix when you came out and played with me josh and jess..that was fun times..But anyways...i keep getting side tracked because there is soo much that we did and accomplished...ok anyways again...mom got me and you to work on a job with my stepdad and you worked one day and pussed out because it was too much labor..faggot..cant take the heat...lol....then we lost touch for awhile..its been a hectic year...then just recently we got intouch again and you got to come spend a week with me...and you dont know how greatful i am that i got to spend that week woth you and introduce you to some of my new friends and of course Fallon...All of them loved you to death..Im just sitting here thinking..and right here were im at no about a month or less ago you were sitting right here typing in your journal about you and danny going 120 down the watterson with me and fallon trying to keep up..no way...you were with danny when he got caught stealing. THen we told you we wouldnt be there to pick you up until like 11 because we had to get him out of jail..then we pop up around the corner and go throwing objects at innocent bystanders.......

Thats about the last memories i have of you...I just want you to know ive always loved you like a brother...dont forget that...Im always going to be thinking about you...You were a big part of my life and a one of the best friends anyone could ever ask for. I love you Nate...Take Care...Hopfully one of these days i get to see you again. I already know your doing ok because i feel you as weird as that may sound.

But once again I love you...and ill see you one of these days...RIP bro...ill never forget you

I know your just fine