Jun 12, 2013 23:55
i stopped testosterone 9 months ago after 6 years of being on it. i'm not detransitioning and still identify as male and want to keep my body as male looking as possible, but due to medical reasons i was advised to try coming off and at this point i don't really want to go back on.
in the last couple of months or so my chest has been very tender to the touch. i havent paid a huge amount of attention to it and it comes and goes, but isnt always in line with monthly bleeding or anything like that.
i'm starting to worry that i'm experiencing breast regrowth as i feel like my chest is sort of swollen and softer to touch than before. i feel as though i can see my nipples etc through tshirts much more than before, and i'm feeling really paranoid that i'm starting to look like i have little moobs.
i'm stealth in the majority of my life and i'm freaking out that it's going to get worse and i'm going to have to start binding again / pay for surgery again (something i definitely can't afford). i'd been coping quite well being off t until this point, the bleeding stuff hasn't really bothered me and i've had minimal noticable fat redistribution, but this is something i am struggling to stop worrying about.
i was genuinely under the impression that after top surgery the chance of regrowth, even off hormones, was minimal to none - but i'm wondering if that's because people have had DI and not peri, and maybe they didn't remove the gland or whatever that allows my chest to grow. i had surgery at 18 so i'm scared maybe my body had more growth left in it or something and that's happening now. but part of me might just be being paranoid - i'm not really sure at this point.
tl;dr - has anyone who had peri stopped testosterone? did you notice any regrowth? did the regrowth stop quite soon or actually become full breasts? i'm totally freaking out my old chest is just going to grow back, or enough of it to mean i cant feel comfortable in tshirts anymore. i hope not!