Why Can't You See Me, Eleanor?

[stoponred]

damn.
what the hell is this feeling?

i am hurting inside everytime i see him.

i do not like it.
i do not like this feeling.
if this is "love" than it fucking sucks.
it shouldn't hurt this bad . . .

it's every day
i'm in this place
i feel this way
i feel the same
it's every day
i'm in this place
i feel this way
i feel the same

i can't NOT see him in my head.
i can't NOT think about him.
what is wrong with me?
people tell me it will go away.
"you'll find someone else."
like hell it will go away.
it hasn't in the past three years.
why should it go away now, after all these years?

what the hell am i doing?
this won't help anything.

it can't.

fuck.

Eleanor I wish you'd release me from your spell

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am