so's everything
You know those days where you go around thinking about ways to make yourself better? finding all kinds of flaws in how you're living and make a concious effort right then and there to stop them and you get home and you eat something nice and healthy and you decide that you will go to bed early and sleep eight hours and wake up beautifully to a sunny day and start paying attention in school and reading the textbooks (as soon as you buy them in the morning) and you put something great to fall asleep to on the radio, something that always did the trick a few monthes ago, and you don't fall asleep, you stay awake through the whole thing, which doesnt make any sense because you were tired before getting into bed, so you figure it must be the cd, so you change it and fall asleep only to be awoken screaming to yourself due to a nightmare you had where you were going to get murdered on some church steps then before you know it you're back asleep (or maybe you never woke up, you can't really tell) and you are exactly where you were only this time you arent going to get murdered, you're just going to get framed for a murder and you scream just the same and this time you wake up for real and you know it's still dark and you hope you've at least gotten a little bit of sleep and you see it's been a little over an hour since you changed the cd and you h a t e e v e r y t h i n g and there is nothing in the house that can change that because your mom wont allow pets and all you want is a dog to get in bed with you to watch cartoons you spent your free time downloading.