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Makes you sick, makes you ill,
makes you cheat, slipping change from the till.
Had it up to the gills... makes you cry while
the milk still spills. Ain't it just a bitch? What a pain...
Well it's all a crying shame. What
left to do but complain? Better find someone to blame.
WARNING: This is a hardcore venting journal.......so if ya dont feel like listening to some1 bitch and moan dont read it.....and if you do read it dont get pissed about it cause I just warned you asshole
Wow....I am afraid to start typing cause I dont wanna things I dont really mean but what the hell...........FUCKING STOP taking shit out on me....I honestly cannot take it any longer...All I can do is what I'm doing...I'm not slacking, Im not being an asshole, I am just doin my thing, and if you cant understand then I guess "its your failing". I am who I am and if you dont appreciate then you can eat shit, cause I am not gonna change myself just so I can avoid being bitched at. And yea I havnt been lookin at this onesidedly...I have tried hard to change my point of view maybe try and look at it from your direction...but its doesnt matter cause everything that happens is my fault, and you nevr understand what its doing to me until you see me cry....and then you cant even apologize...Alls I get is "well what a stupid thing to cry over"...yea I am pretty damn stupid huh?
I not gonna change for you....and I certainly dont expect you to...so I spose were stuck...and there really only seems like there could be one solution... All I am saying is that this summer I have to make some very diffcult decisions, things that are going to change my whole lifestyle, and right now the odds of me staying w/ you are slightly out of your favor. And when I say slightly I mean immensely.And I have a feeling that you wont do very well with out you're fucking skapegote, and that your day will end miserably because you have no one stupid enough to let you take every single one of YOUR problems out on.....SAVE IT....I have had enough of your shit for one year thanx
ALSO........I have never been part of a group who put compassion for one another after everything all of that other SHIT that doesnt really matter. ..When you get towards the end of you self indulged lives you're gonna find that ppl care about other ppl than themselves come out on top cause they get to be surrounded by ppl who care for them back...and for all of you who need me to translate that: you are all gonna end up lonely and the only ppl to keep ypu company is your misrable selves.....
And the awful part is, is that this trait for not caring for others is rubbing off on me....I find myself feeling things I never was familiar w/ before I got involved with you like pettyness...jealously...malicicousness..24 hour bitchyness(which used ot be only like 4 hour bitchyness..but I got an upgrade I guess)....The good is soooo overpowered by the bad.....You would thinki it would be easy to make this decision....but something about you makes me wanna stay.....whatever....Im gonna leave this subject alone for now...
NEWAYZ....NEW TOPIC...The Joes graduation was such a wonderful event to occupy my empty Thurday night......While I waited for the parts I actaully cared about I read through all of the names....and I found myslef getting sadder and sadder that most of these that I came to watch graduate I was prolly not gonna see them every other day like I have been...and some of them I would prolly never talk to, and others I would loose touch with, and that a lot things were going to change....and by the time I got to the P's I couldnt control the tears from rolling down my cheeks....I almost made it but those DAMN P'S.....haha alls I am saying is that you cant even read the writing under Priore and Prucha's names because that page was so wet(haha slight exaggeration)......and that was only to the P's...I still had 11 more letters of the alphabet to saturate w/ saltyness lol.........haha so yea Brownie, Andrew David Carlo(hehe), Motel Kamzoil, Owie Bear, Don, Chris(Chuckles), Popey, RJ, CHEMISTRY TUTOR, Joe, Mel, Kevin(or as I like to refer to you;Cheeks), Savory, CRAIG aka Tom, Tim...Things are gonna be really different without all of you....and the sad part is you are only half of the ppl leaving....Istill havnt been to the girls or my brothers graduations yet lol.........LOVE YOU....not missing you is NOT an option.
"How long did we all think this all would last?
Who could have counted days as they flew past?
But before we go, sing us a song........."
makes you cheat, slipping change from the till.
Had it up to the gills... makes you cry while
the milk still spills. Ain't it just a bitch? What a pain...
Well it's all a crying shame. What
left to do but complain? Better find someone to blame.
WARNING: This is a hardcore venting journal.......so if ya dont feel like listening to some1 bitch and moan dont read it.....and if you do read it dont get pissed about it cause I just warned you asshole
Wow....I am afraid to start typing cause I dont wanna things I dont really mean but what the hell...........FUCKING STOP taking shit out on me....I honestly cannot take it any longer...All I can do is what I'm doing...I'm not slacking, Im not being an asshole, I am just doin my thing, and if you cant understand then I guess "its your failing". I am who I am and if you dont appreciate then you can eat shit, cause I am not gonna change myself just so I can avoid being bitched at. And yea I havnt been lookin at this onesidedly...I have tried hard to change my point of view maybe try and look at it from your direction...but its doesnt matter cause everything that happens is my fault, and you nevr understand what its doing to me until you see me cry....and then you cant even apologize...Alls I get is "well what a stupid thing to cry over"...yea I am pretty damn stupid huh?
I not gonna change for you....and I certainly dont expect you to...so I spose were stuck...and there really only seems like there could be one solution... All I am saying is that this summer I have to make some very diffcult decisions, things that are going to change my whole lifestyle, and right now the odds of me staying w/ you are slightly out of your favor. And when I say slightly I mean immensely.And I have a feeling that you wont do very well with out you're fucking skapegote, and that your day will end miserably because you have no one stupid enough to let you take every single one of YOUR problems out on.....SAVE IT....I have had enough of your shit for one year thanx
ALSO........I have never been part of a group who put compassion for one another after everything all of that other SHIT that doesnt really matter. ..When you get towards the end of you self indulged lives you're gonna find that ppl care about other ppl than themselves come out on top cause they get to be surrounded by ppl who care for them back...and for all of you who need me to translate that: you are all gonna end up lonely and the only ppl to keep ypu company is your misrable selves.....
And the awful part is, is that this trait for not caring for others is rubbing off on me....I find myself feeling things I never was familiar w/ before I got involved with you like pettyness...jealously...malicicousness..24 hour bitchyness(which used ot be only like 4 hour bitchyness..but I got an upgrade I guess)....The good is soooo overpowered by the bad.....You would thinki it would be easy to make this decision....but something about you makes me wanna stay.....whatever....Im gonna leave this subject alone for now...
NEWAYZ....NEW TOPIC...The Joes graduation was such a wonderful event to occupy my empty Thurday night......While I waited for the parts I actaully cared about I read through all of the names....and I found myslef getting sadder and sadder that most of these that I came to watch graduate I was prolly not gonna see them every other day like I have been...and some of them I would prolly never talk to, and others I would loose touch with, and that a lot things were going to change....and by the time I got to the P's I couldnt control the tears from rolling down my cheeks....I almost made it but those DAMN P'S.....haha alls I am saying is that you cant even read the writing under Priore and Prucha's names because that page was so wet(haha slight exaggeration)......and that was only to the P's...I still had 11 more letters of the alphabet to saturate w/ saltyness lol.........haha so yea Brownie, Andrew David Carlo(hehe), Motel Kamzoil, Owie Bear, Don, Chris(Chuckles), Popey, RJ, CHEMISTRY TUTOR, Joe, Mel, Kevin(or as I like to refer to you;Cheeks), Savory, CRAIG aka Tom, Tim...Things are gonna be really different without all of you....and the sad part is you are only half of the ppl leaving....Istill havnt been to the girls or my brothers graduations yet lol.........LOVE YOU....not missing you is NOT an option.
"How long did we all think this all would last?
Who could have counted days as they flew past?
But before we go, sing us a song........."