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i have entirely too much to say as always. and it's good to know that some of your guys still take the time to read this. I'm writing this whole thing with no expectation of greatness, but that someday you might read it and it would be more than words. and someday you might read it and understand half of what i'm feeling today. and i've talked to you all about this entirely too much and i would simply like to say that emotion is the powering force for living and that simply you must constantly be in a state of emotional openess with your friends.
I would now like to simply stop and say that all of that was bullshit that only happens once ina lifetime and usually only with one person. so i suppose that what i'm saying is, while emotions are what make life worth living. nobody always wants to lead with their emotion. and in fact the thing that makes me sad is that the further we grow and develope as adults, the more we sell out to mtv and the nescesity for a thousand perfect frames for every minute
life is not anywhere near perfect and the desire for perfection is simply what drags us away from the one pure thing we will ever have. Love, hate, sorrow. these are what life is for. regret.
i mean, believe it or not, no matter what crazy shit you do in your life, it's not gonna stop and become a commercial highlight. and no matter how beautiful the sunset is that your watching. the whole screens not gonna fade to the next scene in slow motion while listening to some five for fighting song. and i mean the fact that mtv expects us to buy this shit and eat it. Like Laguna Beach. how many people can swallow that? unfortunately too many. you know why. we would love to believe that the credits would always role at the right times in our lives.
i guess what i'm saying is that there are soo many things i would love to be and do . and so many people i would want nothing more than to love and talk to and save and spend time with and listen and listen musical and sing and... soo many people that have forgoten what it is to feel, simply because they've found an easier way to live without conviction.
i rant alot. much love. the winter always makes me remember. holler.
"and it's like, when an emo boy stands up in front of the class, and cries...
because he can"
I would now like to simply stop and say that all of that was bullshit that only happens once ina lifetime and usually only with one person. so i suppose that what i'm saying is, while emotions are what make life worth living. nobody always wants to lead with their emotion. and in fact the thing that makes me sad is that the further we grow and develope as adults, the more we sell out to mtv and the nescesity for a thousand perfect frames for every minute
life is not anywhere near perfect and the desire for perfection is simply what drags us away from the one pure thing we will ever have. Love, hate, sorrow. these are what life is for. regret.
i mean, believe it or not, no matter what crazy shit you do in your life, it's not gonna stop and become a commercial highlight. and no matter how beautiful the sunset is that your watching. the whole screens not gonna fade to the next scene in slow motion while listening to some five for fighting song. and i mean the fact that mtv expects us to buy this shit and eat it. Like Laguna Beach. how many people can swallow that? unfortunately too many. you know why. we would love to believe that the credits would always role at the right times in our lives.
i guess what i'm saying is that there are soo many things i would love to be and do . and so many people i would want nothing more than to love and talk to and save and spend time with and listen and listen musical and sing and... soo many people that have forgoten what it is to feel, simply because they've found an easier way to live without conviction.
i rant alot. much love. the winter always makes me remember. holler.
"and it's like, when an emo boy stands up in front of the class, and cries...
because he can"