11:36 makes me puke..
It's 11:36, and I have this foul taste in my mouth. I'm surrounded by nothingness. I've become the kid with the vacant stare in the hallway, completely lethargic and just bored. I went to my classes today, and I know I want to like being there. I'm not following the "fad" of hating being in school. I just lack a connection with people, one that is supposed to be made with little effort.
I keep looking at my dog. Its like hes dieing more and more each step he takes. I sat on the couch for about 20 minutes just staring at him. The both of us had the same thing on our minds..."I'm tired." I know hes not thinking about hes boyfriend of almost 8 months. Wondering how he can be so oblivious at the fact that I'm struggling...dont know what from, or how, just am.
It's not just coincidence that when I'm without him, he's all I want, and when I'm with him, I wanna ring his stupid neck. I want what I can't have, and dont want what I DO have, and so on. I think if i just get through today, i'll figure my shit out.
I cant even write anymore. I know that all in all, i've failed American literature. I am talking just as moronic and dimwhittedly as every other american fuck that inhabits this planet. Doesn't that get boring? drab? sad? this is ridiculous.
i need to find my chi...where the FUCK is my chi?
I keep looking at my dog. Its like hes dieing more and more each step he takes. I sat on the couch for about 20 minutes just staring at him. The both of us had the same thing on our minds..."I'm tired." I know hes not thinking about hes boyfriend of almost 8 months. Wondering how he can be so oblivious at the fact that I'm struggling...dont know what from, or how, just am.
It's not just coincidence that when I'm without him, he's all I want, and when I'm with him, I wanna ring his stupid neck. I want what I can't have, and dont want what I DO have, and so on. I think if i just get through today, i'll figure my shit out.
I cant even write anymore. I know that all in all, i've failed American literature. I am talking just as moronic and dimwhittedly as every other american fuck that inhabits this planet. Doesn't that get boring? drab? sad? this is ridiculous.
i need to find my chi...where the FUCK is my chi?