Comments | stop_panicking: [CLOSED] To you I'm all I've left undone

virulentfacade in stop_panicking

[CLOSED] To you I'm all I've left undone

Jan 04, 2011 09:22

Who: Envy as Nagi, then himself (flightlessprey/virulentfacade) and Genkaku (prayforprey)
What: Genkaku's finally agreed to meet with Nagi.
When: Today at noon.
Where: An empty cabin on the third floor.
Warnings: MIND-FUCKERY. 8)

( This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof )

genkaku, envy

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prayforprey January 7 2011, 09:16:40 UTC

A year on Thor.

Other People have never particularly mattered to Genkaku. People are impossible and small, ignorant and hypocritical. They live within their own closed worlds, they live full of pain and delusion that there’s something more, something out there that’s going to satisfy them more than death. It’s hard to identify with the whole fucking human race sometimes, all full of wandering sheep and too many people longing to be shepherds and… not enough slaughter. Mindless drones marching about their business.

No, the holy man has never thought much of people, instead making tools of them and wielding them for his message: Die to be Happy, to be Satisfied, to be Free from Pain. And the dead can certainly never complain, although their bodies can tell stories. Composed chronologically, all the corpses he’s piled up in basements and atticsaddicts would certainly tell a life’s story.

Hell, all the corpses he’d collected on Thor would tell a tale of a man evolving. The viciousness had never decreased, the propaganda had never ( ... )

flightlessprey January 7 2011, 16:33:51 UTC

The first sound of the door sliding open alerts him to the arrival. So he's here. He's come. He actually showed his face. This thing has been waiting months. This revenge. Envy can still remember that pain months ago when he drove his fist into that fucking pig monk for what he knew. He still remembers the hurt as he was pinned to the floor and kept there with vicious, stinging words. Envy's never liked pain. Being born into nothing but pain and living in it for centuries has made him hate feeling it. It's what makes him different from the monk--that he hates hurting and the monk doesn't ( ... )

prayforprey January 9 2011, 01:10:54 UTC

Without that limb, he thinks Owl has a certain sluggish slouch about him, broad shoulders lopsided and a lonesome sort of gait. The kind that only comes from a man who’s been broken and can’t get back together.

He never could deal with bein’ crazy, Badou had said. But if there’s nothing left, if all your dreams and delusions have been torn right out from underneath you, if there’s nothing to do but give into the crazy side of yourself. Yeah, he supposes Owl’s probably a little on the unhinged side at present.

He’d said he’d come, so here he is. Despite all deficiencies of mental state, Genkaku is a man of his word. Whether Nagi (or even Envy) choose to believe that could be another matter entirely.

The inquiry about his guitar gets a snort, and an honest answer:

“I didn’t come to fight.” It would hurt too much. It would be too much like then.

What he’d said in that room days ago holds true: they have unfinished business. Owl wants to see him. Genkaku wants to slither forward. There can’t be any more talons in his chest to hold ( ... )

flightlessprey January 9 2011, 02:14:14 UTC

What would hurt the most? What would hurt the most without giving it all away. If he doesn't stick to the script, everything will be lost. The end can't be revealed until Envy's ready to reveal it. At the final moment, just before the curtain falls, is when he wants to watch the stunned hurt on the pig monk's face. Then, and only then, will Envy spill everything. Now, still, he needs to be this other man. This one-armed fool whose wife had been killed by the man standing before him. This man that the pig had claimed he loved.

With only so much that Envy knows--that he's gained from the memories the monk shared with that brat--it makes it difficult. This isn't like anything he's done before. With others he had watched them in person. He had only taken their appearances briefly to finish a mission. This, however, iss something for himself. This is lasting longer than any have.

"You said you never died. Why didn't you die here? Those wounds should have killed you," is what he settles on saying. "You should have died there or here, ( ... )

prayforprey January 9 2011, 02:47:07 UTC

Likewise, the name makes his gut clench and churn. He's always embraced the full brunt of pain, and the impact of its use hasn't diluted over the years; every time, it still sounds like the Old Priest saying it, of looking at him with polite but cold condescension ( ... )