mi familia
ever since i've moved out, i've been feeling a lot closer to my dad and stepmom more than ever (especially my dad). it's been a good 6-7 months since i've moved in with my mom. it's also been a good 6-7 months where i've tried to understand my mother and our perplexing relationship. i can say that it's progressing, but it's a very gradual progress. i still can't hold a decent conversation with her without us butting heads with one another. i want to so badly to be close to her and be able to talk to her about anything and everything. i can't help but still sometimes question why i made this decision to move in with her. however, i try my best not to question it because i know i need to be very patient. after all, love is patient. i want this to work with my mom. she is my mom. i love her so much and i want for us to understand each other on every level. because i know that we are alike in so many ways, but we are just afraid to admit it. this is hard.
my brother is turning 14 on tuesday. to me, that is frightening. he had a few friends come over to my dad's house today. he told me his 14 year-old friend asked him, "do you have a sister?" and my brother said "yeah, she's 20". and his friend proceeds to ask, "oh cool, is she hot?" oh my gosh. hello middle-school-going-onto-high-school hormones. i don't want my brother to grow up just yet. however i have a lot of faith that he will make smart choices in life. he is overall a good kid (even though he can be a real pain sometimes).
sarah taught me how to knit today. pretty sure i got it down. i bought some real nice yarn and i'm going to go knit something now. i could be in san diego right now watching jack's mannequin with a few good friends. but no, i am home knitting and listening to the new norah jones album. i suppose this is just as nice.
tomorrow, going into the big city to visit some art sites. and possibly a major haircut.
i need my piano in this house.
good night.
my brother is turning 14 on tuesday. to me, that is frightening. he had a few friends come over to my dad's house today. he told me his 14 year-old friend asked him, "do you have a sister?" and my brother said "yeah, she's 20". and his friend proceeds to ask, "oh cool, is she hot?" oh my gosh. hello middle-school-going-onto-high-school hormones. i don't want my brother to grow up just yet. however i have a lot of faith that he will make smart choices in life. he is overall a good kid (even though he can be a real pain sometimes).
sarah taught me how to knit today. pretty sure i got it down. i bought some real nice yarn and i'm going to go knit something now. i could be in san diego right now watching jack's mannequin with a few good friends. but no, i am home knitting and listening to the new norah jones album. i suppose this is just as nice.
tomorrow, going into the big city to visit some art sites. and possibly a major haircut.
i need my piano in this house.
good night.