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so i havent written on this thing in forever. and i was thinking i should start. maybe saying things for the only girl who reads them, since lately ive been having trouble saying what i think inside. all the arguments do lead to better times, and its honestly all my fault, if i would just talk likei used too it would all be ok again. and this day marking our 10 fucking months of happiness and many more times is just a big click to realize once again how much i have in someone so young (just like me). you really cant let go of what you have because you dont know what comes later on in life. i say as long as you enjoy yourself and do most of everything with that person you are happy and theyre good for you, and thats the sign of you shouldnt let go being stamped onto your forhead.
our six flags adventure is coming up . hopefully we will get to do everyting we planned. its kinda weird how we say things and actually do them, never once in my life have i actually planned something and had it done. now that the day is finally coming i get the excited sensation in my stomach and wish that it was tomorrow so that i could stay up all night and just dream about how i want it to go and sleep with a smile on my face. honestly i think the best part will be the 4 hours in the car with the people i care about. it will be quite fun to see how we cope with each other in one spot for that length of time.
so my old days of wanting a certain someone back have been gone for quite some time now and i feel im at the best when someone says her name and i think nothing of it. it makes me feel like im finally at my best and i realise that im happy. you know it takes a lot for you to make fun and treat that person like shit and enjoy and laugh at it with the one that you would do anythingfor. so just another day enjoying my new life and forgetting and feeling nothing for the old one. it makes me so happy to say im new and i dont care about anything that happened. i love my new book, and i wish i was one of the harry potter peoples so i could put a last forever only hearts no pains spell on it...you know?
i also think its pretty gay when my fucking 14 year old brother has a job and i do not. you know youre a big fucking loser after that. ha it seems the thing i want the most doesnt come but when im finally ready to give up it wont let me. maybe one day right so i can like buy things, and make my parents proud of me.
today should be the best of all days, defining my record of 10 months to the best fucking girl in the world that i dont deserve but am so god damn lucky i have, and wouldnt trade ANYTHING in the world for. shes worth everything anyone could define and more. i feel like im at a new high, and im ready to like just talk to someone about everyting inside. ha maybe like a charity day or something for my thoughts. but maybe itll be a retard day and we'll spend it laughing or something weird like that. who knows...you really dont when it comes to us. ha we might even master our psychic abilities.
so even though no one reads this but you, i really want you to know im sorry for being a cunt and i think im over the whole bitch stage.
so happy anniversary, and thanks for making me love with everything, even though i thought i would never have anything worth going on. you make me want plans for the future, and you make me smile and laugh the most. so hopes for many more times, and memories to fill the book right?
our six flags adventure is coming up . hopefully we will get to do everyting we planned. its kinda weird how we say things and actually do them, never once in my life have i actually planned something and had it done. now that the day is finally coming i get the excited sensation in my stomach and wish that it was tomorrow so that i could stay up all night and just dream about how i want it to go and sleep with a smile on my face. honestly i think the best part will be the 4 hours in the car with the people i care about. it will be quite fun to see how we cope with each other in one spot for that length of time.
so my old days of wanting a certain someone back have been gone for quite some time now and i feel im at the best when someone says her name and i think nothing of it. it makes me feel like im finally at my best and i realise that im happy. you know it takes a lot for you to make fun and treat that person like shit and enjoy and laugh at it with the one that you would do anythingfor. so just another day enjoying my new life and forgetting and feeling nothing for the old one. it makes me so happy to say im new and i dont care about anything that happened. i love my new book, and i wish i was one of the harry potter peoples so i could put a last forever only hearts no pains spell on it...you know?
i also think its pretty gay when my fucking 14 year old brother has a job and i do not. you know youre a big fucking loser after that. ha it seems the thing i want the most doesnt come but when im finally ready to give up it wont let me. maybe one day right so i can like buy things, and make my parents proud of me.
today should be the best of all days, defining my record of 10 months to the best fucking girl in the world that i dont deserve but am so god damn lucky i have, and wouldnt trade ANYTHING in the world for. shes worth everything anyone could define and more. i feel like im at a new high, and im ready to like just talk to someone about everyting inside. ha maybe like a charity day or something for my thoughts. but maybe itll be a retard day and we'll spend it laughing or something weird like that. who knows...you really dont when it comes to us. ha we might even master our psychic abilities.
so even though no one reads this but you, i really want you to know im sorry for being a cunt and i think im over the whole bitch stage.
so happy anniversary, and thanks for making me love with everything, even though i thought i would never have anything worth going on. you make me want plans for the future, and you make me smile and laugh the most. so hopes for many more times, and memories to fill the book right?