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it's been a long time. well, a long time with anything of substance. not that i've done a lot...other than been home. seen a few movies, been to a wedding, missed out on an awesome apartment by about 30 minutes(still bitter), gone to dinosaur uproar at the botanical gardens...i'm so happy to have a season pass there. it's the best place to go and just be-take a book, take my camera, just take myself.
our friend ray moved. kinda bums me out. he's only two hours away but we got really close in a short time. he didn't mind just coming over and talking, plus when i wasn't in the mood to talk-him and jt got along great. i feel bad b/c with jt's old roommates moving and a lot of his friends not having a lot of free time he doesn't get a lot of friend time so it was nice having someone i could geek out with who jt could geek out with too. plus-hansi loved him.
jt's been working about 50 hours a week getting ready to open the new store. he's been so tired lately, but it's been ok b/c i don't ever really want to go anywhere. it's weird-i do, i want to go places and see my friends but i feel...dull lately. like i have nothing of substance to say. like all my friends are way too exciting for me and they're close to realizing it. i think that's why i haven't talked to anyone lately. i think they're gonna be like, "have you always been this boring?" i'm more surprised everyday that jt still likes me so much. he has all those pieces that none of my other boyfriends ever had. every morning i'm shocked to wake up and still find him lying there. bringing me food on my day off, getting me medicine when i feel bad, putting up with my dog, thinking i'm beautiful and amazing...and always telling me so.
and yet...there are some people i painfully miss-and yet i haven't done anything about it. well, it doesn't help that my car doesn't work so i have no transportation. and i'm broke b/c i have to pay to get my car fixed so it's not like i can do tons of exciting things that people want to do.
i don't know. how can you be so happy and yet...missing something. i feel like i harp on about it. i really want to go back to school but i'm terrified to do it after being out for so long. i've always been worried that people will realize that i'm not as smart as they think i am. i'm worried that i'll realize it too...
bright side...my brother is having another baby. i'm uber excited b/c this time i'll get to be there for the whole thing. i hope it's a boy-i'll be happy no matter what but i want a nephew!
i go from nothing to wall of text...i need to learn balance.
our friend ray moved. kinda bums me out. he's only two hours away but we got really close in a short time. he didn't mind just coming over and talking, plus when i wasn't in the mood to talk-him and jt got along great. i feel bad b/c with jt's old roommates moving and a lot of his friends not having a lot of free time he doesn't get a lot of friend time so it was nice having someone i could geek out with who jt could geek out with too. plus-hansi loved him.
jt's been working about 50 hours a week getting ready to open the new store. he's been so tired lately, but it's been ok b/c i don't ever really want to go anywhere. it's weird-i do, i want to go places and see my friends but i feel...dull lately. like i have nothing of substance to say. like all my friends are way too exciting for me and they're close to realizing it. i think that's why i haven't talked to anyone lately. i think they're gonna be like, "have you always been this boring?" i'm more surprised everyday that jt still likes me so much. he has all those pieces that none of my other boyfriends ever had. every morning i'm shocked to wake up and still find him lying there. bringing me food on my day off, getting me medicine when i feel bad, putting up with my dog, thinking i'm beautiful and amazing...and always telling me so.
and yet...there are some people i painfully miss-and yet i haven't done anything about it. well, it doesn't help that my car doesn't work so i have no transportation. and i'm broke b/c i have to pay to get my car fixed so it's not like i can do tons of exciting things that people want to do.
i don't know. how can you be so happy and yet...missing something. i feel like i harp on about it. i really want to go back to school but i'm terrified to do it after being out for so long. i've always been worried that people will realize that i'm not as smart as they think i am. i'm worried that i'll realize it too...
bright side...my brother is having another baby. i'm uber excited b/c this time i'll get to be there for the whole thing. i hope it's a boy-i'll be happy no matter what but i want a nephew!
i go from nothing to wall of text...i need to learn balance.