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i can't believe this is it. im leaving in less than 12 hours.
my bags are so heavy the boys could barely lift them.
im not going to make it back from chicago.
i love england. im going to miss england. there's a part of me here and ill never ever forget it. you can jst feel it.
im the only one in the flat at this moment. james just left. popps and jules left earlier this morning. chris is here but he's out somewhere. it makes it less and more sad at the same time. it makes it more real though.
my stomach's in knots. i don't want to leave but i can't wait to get home. tomorrow is going to be such a long day.
i wonder how home is going to feel. i wonder how much ill think about england. and when's the next time ill be able to come back.
and if one more person says to me "don't cry because it's over, be happy because it happened". ughhh optimism is not in my psyche today. or tomorrow. get back to me on monday.
i can't wait to see everyone though i don't feel as if i've been gone that long.
sob.
my bags are so heavy the boys could barely lift them.
im not going to make it back from chicago.
i love england. im going to miss england. there's a part of me here and ill never ever forget it. you can jst feel it.
im the only one in the flat at this moment. james just left. popps and jules left earlier this morning. chris is here but he's out somewhere. it makes it less and more sad at the same time. it makes it more real though.
my stomach's in knots. i don't want to leave but i can't wait to get home. tomorrow is going to be such a long day.
i wonder how home is going to feel. i wonder how much ill think about england. and when's the next time ill be able to come back.
and if one more person says to me "don't cry because it's over, be happy because it happened". ughhh optimism is not in my psyche today. or tomorrow. get back to me on monday.
i can't wait to see everyone though i don't feel as if i've been gone that long.
sob.