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Just sitting here waiting for Josh to come home. I hate being stuck home by myself for the night when all my friends are working or have gone away to college. Brea left for Kent today. Luckily I got to meet up with here for coffee. It always seems that I start hanging out with her and we drift and then start hanging out again once she has a few days left before she goes back to school. I guess thats fine. I suppose that the connection with her isnt as good as it used to be. Back during my senior year, all of the girls that I hung out with all seemed so close. Once the drugs got too hard for me, I backed away from it. Dont get me wrong, I love my drink and smoke. But coke isnt my department, if you know what I mean. Two years later, mostly everyone is out of the stage. Ive drifted from a lot of the girls like Ashley C and Tori but thats fine. Tori and I were so close and once she got a boyfriend she totally ditched me at any chance possible. Im over it now but Ive learned a lot about the difference between "friends" and "the people you call friends."
Lately Ive been spending a lot of time with Ashley M. We were friends way back in the day and drifted. She had a reallly bad coke addiction and went to rehab. I swear, even then, I was always worried about her. This summer when she came back from school in Chicago, we became really close. We hang out anytime our schedules allow it basically. Its a nice change from going from not having a best friend in sooo long to having one now. Its nice to finally have someone to relate to. I mean, Josh tries his hardest but he doesnt fully understand my stresses because hes not a girl. But Im excited because tomorrow Ash, Josh and I are going to the Tech N9ne and Kottonmouth Kings concert. So I guess theres something to look forward to past tonights uneventful night. Maybe we'll finish the rest of the vodka when he gets home. hehe...