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i have never felt entitled to my feelings. i'm better off laughing it all off for eternity, like one big joke that even i don't get. i am better off giving advise for things i haven't the first clue about... living vicariously through the actual living. oh yes, i am much better with a bag over my head. oh yes, i am much better when i am dead.
dreaming, dreaming, dreaming until the sharp smack of a human voice brings me back again... dragging me back again. a love song in my head, a question in my ear. "Where are the non-fiction books at?" "I don't know, I just don't know. So sorry." i do know though, why did i say i didn't?
i am only an effigy. i have been burned a thousand times before. i always come back with the next straw harvest. i am a golem. when it rains my skin melts off in muddy sheets until nothing is left but a single prayer. you bring me back again... oh but i don't want to come back, you force me back.
dreaming, dreaming, dreaming until the sharp smack of a human voice brings me back again... dragging me back again. a love song in my head, a question in my ear. "Where are the non-fiction books at?" "I don't know, I just don't know. So sorry." i do know though, why did i say i didn't?
i am only an effigy. i have been burned a thousand times before. i always come back with the next straw harvest. i am a golem. when it rains my skin melts off in muddy sheets until nothing is left but a single prayer. you bring me back again... oh but i don't want to come back, you force me back.