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saturday night. i had the opportunity to go out but passed, of course. i suck at life currently. i know i have stuff going on. i know that i have perfectly good reasons for not being able to function. but this just fucking sucks. i want to do well in my classes. i'm tired of having stuff going on and using that as an excuse. i could do this work. i am fully capable of doing this work. i am a capable 20 year old person who has been in college 2 years and can do this work. i am just fucking lazy. if i could just sit down and not dick around i would get so much accomplished. i want to learn and i want to do this. i am just so fucking frustrated that it is ridiculous. this is all ridiculous. my life is fucking ridiculous. ahhhhh!
at some point, i really will quit whining.
and at some point i will lose some weight. this is ridiculous. nothing fits the way it used to and i'm hating this way too much. i need to get on the stick. i know, i know, why am i putting this comment on a screen that others are going to read...hey this is my journal and i can be unhealthy if i want. so on with the weight loss comments.
the drinking has to stop (minus the 19th- if ya know what i mean). so does the late night eating. and the candy and ice cream. and eating out. and sitting on my ass 24/7. and drinking things with calories in them. you know i always said that i would never drink b/c there were too many calories involved and i think i was right. silly alcohol. so good but so wrong.
alright. i'm spent. maybe i will wake up tomorrow and everything will be okay again.
then monkeys might fly out of my butt HAHA.
at some point, i really will quit whining.
and at some point i will lose some weight. this is ridiculous. nothing fits the way it used to and i'm hating this way too much. i need to get on the stick. i know, i know, why am i putting this comment on a screen that others are going to read...hey this is my journal and i can be unhealthy if i want. so on with the weight loss comments.
the drinking has to stop (minus the 19th- if ya know what i mean). so does the late night eating. and the candy and ice cream. and eating out. and sitting on my ass 24/7. and drinking things with calories in them. you know i always said that i would never drink b/c there were too many calories involved and i think i was right. silly alcohol. so good but so wrong.
alright. i'm spent. maybe i will wake up tomorrow and everything will be okay again.
then monkeys might fly out of my butt HAHA.