*cough* That's a lot of dust on here...
I changed the theme of the journal for the second time ever a while ago, intending to post, but never did. Most of my real life friends who used Livejournal seem to have stopped, and I'm not sure if I was a symptom or part of the cause. Anyway, regardless I still feel like saying a few words for whatever reason so I will.
I've been rereading my old posts to this journal, thinking about what has changed and what hasn't. It seems that in a lot of ways what I was thinking then I still think today. I still feel a lot of uncertainty and there are still a few parts of my life that I wish I could cut myself away from. However, there are a few instances where I can't help but laugh at how dramatic I made some things out to be, when from today's perspective they seem so petty. I guess that's just how hindsight is, though. We can never really see the effects things will have until we're well removed from them.
I'm wondering if I should change my icon, haha. It's just a wee bit outdated now, since it's from September 2005. That's a bit of a mindfuck in itself actually, thinking that it's been that long since I started university. Jeez.
Recently I've been trying to make some positive changes. For one, I've barely bought anything in the way of clothes since maybe mid 2005, which is a bit ridiculous. I didn't own a single pair of shorts, and had made it through lower Ontario summer after summer wearing pants. Well, I figured that might as well stop this year. I have had a longstanding predisposition against shorts for whatever reason, but maybe I just got used to them after wearing them for the gym all of last semester - a borrowed pair of shorts from my housemate, I should add.
So, I went clothes shopping last Tuesday after classes and bought a couple pairs of shorts and 4 new shirts. That was all I could manage in one go. I have never been a fan of shopping :P The other little update to my wardrobe is an attempt to move towards better-fitting shirts, since I used to wear them pretty huge. Not quite rapper-dress-huge, but much larger than I needed. Anyway, I picked out shirts that were a bit brighter and summer-y, and also that were quite frame-fitting. I've always been lucky enough to be reasonably skinny with little effort on my part, and starting to go to the gym regularly last semester put a little bit of bulk on, so I figured I shouldn't be afraid to show it off a bit I guess, haha. It's been kind of a nice confidence boost, actually. I look skinnier without all the bagginess for sure. The reaction from my housemates when they first saw me decked out in my new clothes was positive, and I especially value Heather's input, since her fashion sense leaves everyone else's in the house in the dust.
Adding in the fact that I also ditched the longer hair that I'd been cultivating for nearly a year to return to a shorter style, and I feel pretty good nowadays. I think I'm going to have to do round two of my so-called wardrobe resuscitation tomorrow. I'm going to end up replacing most of my old clothes, so there's going to need to be more new stuff to be had.
If I could, I would wrap this up with some kind of point, but I don't have one. I didn't set out to write this with one in mind, and one didn't develop as I wrote, so I'm stuck. Oh well. I'm going to get ready and then head out to The Grill for a burger I think. I also need to go grocery shopping tomorrow, haha. I want to start updating this thing again. We'll see how that goes.
I've been rereading my old posts to this journal, thinking about what has changed and what hasn't. It seems that in a lot of ways what I was thinking then I still think today. I still feel a lot of uncertainty and there are still a few parts of my life that I wish I could cut myself away from. However, there are a few instances where I can't help but laugh at how dramatic I made some things out to be, when from today's perspective they seem so petty. I guess that's just how hindsight is, though. We can never really see the effects things will have until we're well removed from them.
I'm wondering if I should change my icon, haha. It's just a wee bit outdated now, since it's from September 2005. That's a bit of a mindfuck in itself actually, thinking that it's been that long since I started university. Jeez.
Recently I've been trying to make some positive changes. For one, I've barely bought anything in the way of clothes since maybe mid 2005, which is a bit ridiculous. I didn't own a single pair of shorts, and had made it through lower Ontario summer after summer wearing pants. Well, I figured that might as well stop this year. I have had a longstanding predisposition against shorts for whatever reason, but maybe I just got used to them after wearing them for the gym all of last semester - a borrowed pair of shorts from my housemate, I should add.
So, I went clothes shopping last Tuesday after classes and bought a couple pairs of shorts and 4 new shirts. That was all I could manage in one go. I have never been a fan of shopping :P The other little update to my wardrobe is an attempt to move towards better-fitting shirts, since I used to wear them pretty huge. Not quite rapper-dress-huge, but much larger than I needed. Anyway, I picked out shirts that were a bit brighter and summer-y, and also that were quite frame-fitting. I've always been lucky enough to be reasonably skinny with little effort on my part, and starting to go to the gym regularly last semester put a little bit of bulk on, so I figured I shouldn't be afraid to show it off a bit I guess, haha. It's been kind of a nice confidence boost, actually. I look skinnier without all the bagginess for sure. The reaction from my housemates when they first saw me decked out in my new clothes was positive, and I especially value Heather's input, since her fashion sense leaves everyone else's in the house in the dust.
Adding in the fact that I also ditched the longer hair that I'd been cultivating for nearly a year to return to a shorter style, and I feel pretty good nowadays. I think I'm going to have to do round two of my so-called wardrobe resuscitation tomorrow. I'm going to end up replacing most of my old clothes, so there's going to need to be more new stuff to be had.
If I could, I would wrap this up with some kind of point, but I don't have one. I didn't set out to write this with one in mind, and one didn't develop as I wrote, so I'm stuck. Oh well. I'm going to get ready and then head out to The Grill for a burger I think. I also need to go grocery shopping tomorrow, haha. I want to start updating this thing again. We'll see how that goes.