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so i was reading a close friend's entry just a couple moments ago, he was talking how you can get so caught up in life, doing things, or working, that you don't have enough time to pause enjoy life or really worry about your own personal self. that is very true. saddly, life is like that, you have to work a certain amount to pay for bills or make your living, if your in school then you join clubs to make you a better looking scholar, everything you do is for you, even though you might not enjoy it or feel that your stressing to much about it, everything your doing is for you.
i wish i didn't have to work almost 40 hours a week just to pay my rent and bills, and get nothing out of it, barely enough for food or gas but, you have to do things you don't want to. i wish i had the time to go back to school, see i have to wait till i save up a few hundred $$, that will take a while. i wish i could go out and enjoy my teenage years, i want that more than anything but, its relaity i am a felon, dropout, barely make enough to feed myself. everything works out in the end, if your in highschool working your ass off to get in a good college then it will work out, i will get to go back to school in a few months, everything works out even if you don't enjoy it, but you have to do it.
i want more right now than working my ass off and drinking everynight but, i have to work to pay bills and save up to go back to school. i wish i could be a 16 year old girl living with no worries just thinking about how i dont want to do homework but, i dont have that. but im making the best of what i know, i believe everything happens for a reason and everything always does work out.
but anyways..... friday i will finally be in my apartment, i'm excited, ready for a change.
today is my day off i have been wasting away on the couch watching so many episods of sex and the city, a girls one true love. well time to shower.
i wish i didn't have to work almost 40 hours a week just to pay my rent and bills, and get nothing out of it, barely enough for food or gas but, you have to do things you don't want to. i wish i had the time to go back to school, see i have to wait till i save up a few hundred $$, that will take a while. i wish i could go out and enjoy my teenage years, i want that more than anything but, its relaity i am a felon, dropout, barely make enough to feed myself. everything works out in the end, if your in highschool working your ass off to get in a good college then it will work out, i will get to go back to school in a few months, everything works out even if you don't enjoy it, but you have to do it.
i want more right now than working my ass off and drinking everynight but, i have to work to pay bills and save up to go back to school. i wish i could be a 16 year old girl living with no worries just thinking about how i dont want to do homework but, i dont have that. but im making the best of what i know, i believe everything happens for a reason and everything always does work out.
but anyways..... friday i will finally be in my apartment, i'm excited, ready for a change.
today is my day off i have been wasting away on the couch watching so many episods of sex and the city, a girls one true love. well time to shower.