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Something I've realized about myself: It used to be, that I took a while to warm up to people. I've been shy since as far back as I can remember, but, given a few hours with a group of people, I would open up and be myself
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First I would like to start by letting you know what a wonderful and amazing person I have always thought you were, and still do think you are; not once since the first day I met you have I ever regretting calling you a friend. And even though we don't really keep in contact any more as the years have gone by, I still consider you to be very dear to me. You've left me with many great fond memories. Lawns will still never be the same to me, ever. I am glad to hear that you have realized that even if this person gets joy out of your misery, it only proves to make them a truly sad individual but does nothing to tarnish the great person you are. Everyone has their down days. Some more then others.
But I also would like to comment on how I had the same realization about myself a few years back. In high school I was always this loud, outgoing person, as I am sure you remember, never usually shy, and never afraid to talk to people and just put it all out there, but since graduating...I have changed. I also never loose that awkward feeling when dealing with others now. I hate socializing, and I never, never feel that I can be myself when I am around others. I hide behind a calm mask which changes to fit the situation and the mood, keeping my usually crazy self tucked safely away, unseen. I no longer know how to be my real self around others, and even worse, I am afraid to be myself around others, with the exception of a very select few individuals. But I am now rambling, and you're probably thinking, yes, okay, that's nice, shut up already haha. I just felt...the need to share that you are not the only person who has gone through this strange change in social habits.
Sorry for the strange intrusion on a very old post. But I hope that everything in your life is going wonderfully for you right now, because to me, you are a very, very likeable person, and I will always wish you the very best in every aspect of your life. :3
(This is Tifa by the way, I made a new account because I wanted an account where most people from my past would not know about it, and I could post whatever I wanted without judgement or having to hide behind that mask I spoke of earlier, but you're a safe and awesome person so you can know. Just be warned you might not want to follow this particular journal of mine because I will mostly be using it to post a long and very poorly written story that is based off of an Anime and an RP that Leia and I did over the summer)
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