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i hate when i wake up the wrong way & some body part aches. my neck is killin me. :(
ive been feeling stressed out lately and i dont really no why, its kind of weird actually. i got my tints redone on my gs400 today.. it was only less than 100 bucks because my back window was already done from before, even though the car has other problems right now... i need to fix my exhaust because it stinks & i dont wanna die, hell if i did theyd call it suicide.. lol i also need need to fix the god damn heat, i am more cold tryin to put it on then if i just left it off. and here i am gettin the tints done. o well. i have no money & that shit can wait i guess... luckily i have the other car. last week i couldnt go into work one day & mannn it showed in my paycheck. one day really does make a difference!! :( :( :( my bills are rediculous and collection agencies are on my ass 24/7.
last week i was in the hospital with kidney stones for 2 days. it was the WORST PAIN i have everrrrrrrrrrr felt in my entire life. they loaded me up with morphine though, lol. i prey that i never ever get one again. the first day i went i was freaking out. i didnt kno what was happening i thought i was near death hahah. my mom was taking FOREVER to get me there and i really felt like jumping out the door on the highway. i get in the hospital and there was a line and i was screaming on the top of my lungs. i had to stand and wait of course. the guy sitting down with the lady was like "yeah i feel congested, ive been having a cough.." and here i was screaming. the lady showed no remorse either. hrs later i felt 100% back to normal. they sent me home & i went on with my day and went to work. that night, i got another one. i had to go back. my mom was having a shit fit because i woke her up again & she said we couldnt go because it was another hundred bucks. god i hate my mother. WHO SAYS THAT TO SOMEONE WHEN THEY HAVE A KIDNEY STONE?? gets me sooo upset. i go back & im in killer pain and the nurse was like ok i have to ask u questions. "do u speak any other language besides english? are you hearing impaired?" and all these other crazy questions. whyyy couldnt they ask me that AFTER they gave me the morphine?! anyway so that nurse hated me the whole time. she was like "SEE! your a guy, you dont know what its like to have a baby! we women go through a similar pain!" they couldnt find the stones, & sent me home with these sifter things to try to find it myself lol. they assured me that i wouldnt get another one for at least 2 weeks. THANK GOD. they sent me home with acetaminophen w. codeine #3 :( how is it that when im in pain this is what i get? shit, i fake pain and get oxycodones.
its saturday, wooo AMW is on tonight. that is my favorite TV show. too bad i never appeared on it back in my cali days .. hahaaaa. im such a dork. I barely talk to my friends anymore because i'm very upset. some kid kyle died of an overdose of heroin a short period ago, that we all knew and chilled with. im so thankful that i have the self respect to never do that shit. the kid just fucking died off of this and all of them dont care, they still shoot. im sorry but i think something is wrong with that picture. a kid theyd do drugs with .. is dead .. buried in the cold ground .. never to be seen again .. and then this is where we disagree, and i separate myself from them. i cant hang out with all of them together because thats all they do all day is get fucked up. i have to hang out with just allen, or just justin, just chris, just brendan etc. and they change how they are & that bores them. theyd rather be all together with their spoons & lighters because they are retarded. every single one of them is in denial that they are an addict. dont get me wrong tho, they are the coolest people i kno, but theyd be such better people if they got off the drugs. and thats just me & my opinion doesnt reflect on them. so i feel that im a better person when i just stay away, stay home or from doing something with any one of them and at other times i just feel like the biggest loser and i guess "lower my standards" and go see where they r at. ill be that kind of loser all alone in a club or bar tryin to find friends, ruining peoples parties & getting in all the pictures when everyone is like "who is that guy?" hahaha o mannn i need to stop carrying on.
k im out, peace outtttttttttt. till next time america, take care if yourself and each other.
ive been feeling stressed out lately and i dont really no why, its kind of weird actually. i got my tints redone on my gs400 today.. it was only less than 100 bucks because my back window was already done from before, even though the car has other problems right now... i need to fix my exhaust because it stinks & i dont wanna die, hell if i did theyd call it suicide.. lol i also need need to fix the god damn heat, i am more cold tryin to put it on then if i just left it off. and here i am gettin the tints done. o well. i have no money & that shit can wait i guess... luckily i have the other car. last week i couldnt go into work one day & mannn it showed in my paycheck. one day really does make a difference!! :( :( :( my bills are rediculous and collection agencies are on my ass 24/7.
last week i was in the hospital with kidney stones for 2 days. it was the WORST PAIN i have everrrrrrrrrrr felt in my entire life. they loaded me up with morphine though, lol. i prey that i never ever get one again. the first day i went i was freaking out. i didnt kno what was happening i thought i was near death hahah. my mom was taking FOREVER to get me there and i really felt like jumping out the door on the highway. i get in the hospital and there was a line and i was screaming on the top of my lungs. i had to stand and wait of course. the guy sitting down with the lady was like "yeah i feel congested, ive been having a cough.." and here i was screaming. the lady showed no remorse either. hrs later i felt 100% back to normal. they sent me home & i went on with my day and went to work. that night, i got another one. i had to go back. my mom was having a shit fit because i woke her up again & she said we couldnt go because it was another hundred bucks. god i hate my mother. WHO SAYS THAT TO SOMEONE WHEN THEY HAVE A KIDNEY STONE?? gets me sooo upset. i go back & im in killer pain and the nurse was like ok i have to ask u questions. "do u speak any other language besides english? are you hearing impaired?" and all these other crazy questions. whyyy couldnt they ask me that AFTER they gave me the morphine?! anyway so that nurse hated me the whole time. she was like "SEE! your a guy, you dont know what its like to have a baby! we women go through a similar pain!" they couldnt find the stones, & sent me home with these sifter things to try to find it myself lol. they assured me that i wouldnt get another one for at least 2 weeks. THANK GOD. they sent me home with acetaminophen w. codeine #3 :( how is it that when im in pain this is what i get? shit, i fake pain and get oxycodones.
its saturday, wooo AMW is on tonight. that is my favorite TV show. too bad i never appeared on it back in my cali days .. hahaaaa. im such a dork. I barely talk to my friends anymore because i'm very upset. some kid kyle died of an overdose of heroin a short period ago, that we all knew and chilled with. im so thankful that i have the self respect to never do that shit. the kid just fucking died off of this and all of them dont care, they still shoot. im sorry but i think something is wrong with that picture. a kid theyd do drugs with .. is dead .. buried in the cold ground .. never to be seen again .. and then this is where we disagree, and i separate myself from them. i cant hang out with all of them together because thats all they do all day is get fucked up. i have to hang out with just allen, or just justin, just chris, just brendan etc. and they change how they are & that bores them. theyd rather be all together with their spoons & lighters because they are retarded. every single one of them is in denial that they are an addict. dont get me wrong tho, they are the coolest people i kno, but theyd be such better people if they got off the drugs. and thats just me & my opinion doesnt reflect on them. so i feel that im a better person when i just stay away, stay home or from doing something with any one of them and at other times i just feel like the biggest loser and i guess "lower my standards" and go see where they r at. ill be that kind of loser all alone in a club or bar tryin to find friends, ruining peoples parties & getting in all the pictures when everyone is like "who is that guy?" hahaha o mannn i need to stop carrying on.
k im out, peace outtttttttttt. till next time america, take care if yourself and each other.