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makeup work is not cool.
and i heart my icon. except gene kelly looks like a wax figure. he looks kind of really made up. haha. its great. i love it.
so today was not the best. still sick, bad mood, stupid freakin people.. yeah doesnt mix well. lunch i got slightly hyper. which kind of sucked because then i felt like even more poo the rest of the day.. i just finished my letter to julie. pretty nifty. my hand is slightly crapped now. hehe. oh well.
alyssa-i talked to my mom about her smoking. i told her i was writing about her in my letter to julie. she asked if i was telling julie that my mommy was the bestest mommy in the whole wide world. and you know what i told her? i said, "the bestest mommy in the whole wide world doesnt lie to her daughter" and she didnt know what i was talking about so she asked me what she was lying about. and i asked her "what happened to not smoking?" and she said "sometimes i just need one." and i said "what could possibly make you need something so grotesque? something that's bad and causes cancer and hurts the people around you.." and she said "it helps me to relax" and i said "there are other ways to relax.." and i asked her what is so stressful that she needs to smoke a stupid piece of death to relax and she didnt answer me. it was like she would pick cancer and death over being healthier and happy. i understand why she smoked when we were in denmark-first time being in denmark since her mother died.. understandable. but now? we're rebuilding her freakin kitchen. one thing she's been wanting since my parents bought this damn house. and smoking is her way of relaxing? i'm going through school and faternal pressures and peer pressures and trying to make something of myself and figure out my career and future. i'm stressed alot. but you dont see me smoking cigs to "relax". i do other things. i understand my mom cant take my dogs for long sunday morning walks like she used to because of those stupid people who injured my mom. but you know what? she can still sit in the backyard with the dogs and relax like she does every morning and often times evenings as well. she reads so much now and occassionally we watch movies together. i understand work is difficult and stressful, but she has skip who is one of the most hilarious people i have ever met. she's always laughing when i'm there at her work. and i know its not really any different than when i'm not there. so what the hell happens that makes her need cigarettes to relax??
if anyone can answer my question or give any suggestions, i'd appreciate it because i'm at a loss when it comes to my question.
sorry for all that.
well i'm gonna go watch the lorax.
and i heart my icon. except gene kelly looks like a wax figure. he looks kind of really made up. haha. its great. i love it.
so today was not the best. still sick, bad mood, stupid freakin people.. yeah doesnt mix well. lunch i got slightly hyper. which kind of sucked because then i felt like even more poo the rest of the day.. i just finished my letter to julie. pretty nifty. my hand is slightly crapped now. hehe. oh well.
alyssa-i talked to my mom about her smoking. i told her i was writing about her in my letter to julie. she asked if i was telling julie that my mommy was the bestest mommy in the whole wide world. and you know what i told her? i said, "the bestest mommy in the whole wide world doesnt lie to her daughter" and she didnt know what i was talking about so she asked me what she was lying about. and i asked her "what happened to not smoking?" and she said "sometimes i just need one." and i said "what could possibly make you need something so grotesque? something that's bad and causes cancer and hurts the people around you.." and she said "it helps me to relax" and i said "there are other ways to relax.." and i asked her what is so stressful that she needs to smoke a stupid piece of death to relax and she didnt answer me. it was like she would pick cancer and death over being healthier and happy. i understand why she smoked when we were in denmark-first time being in denmark since her mother died.. understandable. but now? we're rebuilding her freakin kitchen. one thing she's been wanting since my parents bought this damn house. and smoking is her way of relaxing? i'm going through school and faternal pressures and peer pressures and trying to make something of myself and figure out my career and future. i'm stressed alot. but you dont see me smoking cigs to "relax". i do other things. i understand my mom cant take my dogs for long sunday morning walks like she used to because of those stupid people who injured my mom. but you know what? she can still sit in the backyard with the dogs and relax like she does every morning and often times evenings as well. she reads so much now and occassionally we watch movies together. i understand work is difficult and stressful, but she has skip who is one of the most hilarious people i have ever met. she's always laughing when i'm there at her work. and i know its not really any different than when i'm not there. so what the hell happens that makes her need cigarettes to relax??
if anyone can answer my question or give any suggestions, i'd appreciate it because i'm at a loss when it comes to my question.
sorry for all that.
well i'm gonna go watch the lorax.