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i have gotten to the point where i cannot handle things anymore. friends, family, boys, i just can't do it anymore. people are so complex and i don't even know who my friends are anymore, i wish i did. i can't even figure out what i'm feeling, and i'm so sick of people just trying to please other people and being total fakes. maybe it wouldn't be so bad to not be up someone's ass 24/7 and be your own person. maybe not, maybe i'm wrong. i feel like i need to be walking on eggshells lately and after i say something people just bite my fucking head off. thats the reason why i dont even tell my friends important stuff anymore, stuff i most likely should be telling them, stuff they would probly care about...well actually they might not care they may just bite my head off. but instead i keep it to myself lately, i suppose thats what i'm supposed to do.
stuff is starting that i thought i didnt have to worry about anymore. *shrugs*