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UNC is national champs that's tight.
good weekend. did a lot of stuff I think. The movies Alfie and Fear are amazing.
so yesterday I (figuratively) ran into a brick wall.
at least that's what it felt like. and then I laughed? and then I got irate/frustrated.
and then I got upset/dissapointed. the weird part about all of it is that I knew it was going to happen, but I was still surprised.
It sucks. I keep thinking I'm past yesterday, but I'm not. and it'll be awhile. But I'm doing my best.
later yesterday though I realized that I can't let this upset me. I realized it's better to just let it go because this is worth more to me than to just let a setback upset me.
So I'm doing my best to see this through and work it out. because I know that's what I'm supposed to do. I feel like I have a right to feel most everything I do, but I can handle it better - I will handle it better, because it's worth it. letting this get the best of me isn't going help.
I wish I didn't care so much, like everything didn't bother me so much. Not just about this, but everything. but it's how I am so I'll deal with it.
along with what kristin said, I want to be able to love without care, doubt, or failing.
a good all-around guy that was a friend/co-employee from camp lost his life this weekend. keep his family in your prayers.
so thursday I have a track meet. and friday I'm going to the play! footlooseallovertheplace. and then saturday we're probably having the first band practice in like 2 months. and then a bunch of other cool stuff. so I'm excited about the weekend.
everything's gonna be alright. it'll all work out. It's just a matter of when I trust God and let him take care of me.
good weekend. did a lot of stuff I think. The movies Alfie and Fear are amazing.
so yesterday I (figuratively) ran into a brick wall.
at least that's what it felt like. and then I laughed? and then I got irate/frustrated.
and then I got upset/dissapointed. the weird part about all of it is that I knew it was going to happen, but I was still surprised.
It sucks. I keep thinking I'm past yesterday, but I'm not. and it'll be awhile. But I'm doing my best.
later yesterday though I realized that I can't let this upset me. I realized it's better to just let it go because this is worth more to me than to just let a setback upset me.
So I'm doing my best to see this through and work it out. because I know that's what I'm supposed to do. I feel like I have a right to feel most everything I do, but I can handle it better - I will handle it better, because it's worth it. letting this get the best of me isn't going help.
I wish I didn't care so much, like everything didn't bother me so much. Not just about this, but everything. but it's how I am so I'll deal with it.
along with what kristin said, I want to be able to love without care, doubt, or failing.
a good all-around guy that was a friend/co-employee from camp lost his life this weekend. keep his family in your prayers.
so thursday I have a track meet. and friday I'm going to the play! footlooseallovertheplace. and then saturday we're probably having the first band practice in like 2 months. and then a bunch of other cool stuff. so I'm excited about the weekend.
everything's gonna be alright. it'll all work out. It's just a matter of when I trust God and let him take care of me.