I miss my LJ
Wow, i kinda miss live journal....even though reading through it it was all stupid teenage drama shit lol.....wow almost 3 yrs.
I kinda feel like letting ppl know whats going on in my life just generally talk about some shit with ppl but meh it doesnt ever seem to happen.
like stuff thats been on my mind recently a recap for me maybe but here it goes
in janurary i moved out of my house into johns apartment with him
It has to be one of the better decisions i made this entire time.
I met someone in janurary too....Dallas
Omg the boy i thought i could fall in love with....boy was i wrong
He has to be the worst thing that has ever entered my life
In the begging it was UGH he was obessive and ALWAYS wanted to see me and I was like meh i dont want this whole thing where we stop seeing friends and shit type of relationship...so i, in his eyes, was to independent and "untrustworthy" only cuz i didnt want to spend every waking moment with him. but by the time i was more comfortable with him and opening up to him more and letting him in on shit he had already thought in his mind he should try to bring me down. he had held me on a pedistal and thought that was too good for him and he wanted to change that. so he started to basicly treat me like shit....he ditched me more offten then not to get drunk he would get soooooo shit faced that he would be drunk in the morning start a fight with me andforget about it by noon. like huge fights over nothing. HE also told me i was untrustworthy sneeky and that i made it hard for him to care about me. so luckily i wasnt my stupid self learned from past mistakes and have not talked to him in like a month...cold turkey.
and then there is John
The guy i moved in with. he has been everything to me since janurary. he has been there when i needed help he was just awesome and now that we both had to move home i feel as if its the beging to the end of an amazing friendship. I feel like heartbroken knowing at most i'll get to see him once a week. It sucks, some how he has become such a great friend and i am going to miss him more then life. I couldnt even put it into words how much i know i'll miss him. he has like become a part of me.
Every one i met these past few months ill miss too. we had such a great time. all the parties. all the blunts, and the times. Especially Kerri I know i'll see her less i am wicked sad cuz she has become a great friend in a short time :(
Then sammi i cant even explain how much i have put up with her. she treats her b/f like shit and i cant stand it...poor dave his fucking life is ruined. He should have worn a condom. Cuz she is prego. also dave should have dumped her a while ago.....seriously if she was my g/f i'd fucking kick the shit out of her. ki dont even like dave and she just ugh
I know this is an old subject but there is also is a Kurt factor in my life. i Know it has been almost 1.5 yrs but sometimes yes i do miss him. and its hard to know he is happy with some other girls able to cuddle and shit. I think its mostly cuz though the last person i had an in love cuddle with was him and i miss how being in love feels so i am trying to hold on to feelings that dont even exsist in me any more :(
I'm not looking foward to anything at the moment my job hours suck so bad and i keep gaining weight cuz i eat with my emotions and so basicly all i have been doing is eating. meh thats all
I kinda feel like letting ppl know whats going on in my life just generally talk about some shit with ppl but meh it doesnt ever seem to happen.
like stuff thats been on my mind recently a recap for me maybe but here it goes
in janurary i moved out of my house into johns apartment with him
It has to be one of the better decisions i made this entire time.
I met someone in janurary too....Dallas
Omg the boy i thought i could fall in love with....boy was i wrong
He has to be the worst thing that has ever entered my life
In the begging it was UGH he was obessive and ALWAYS wanted to see me and I was like meh i dont want this whole thing where we stop seeing friends and shit type of relationship...so i, in his eyes, was to independent and "untrustworthy" only cuz i didnt want to spend every waking moment with him. but by the time i was more comfortable with him and opening up to him more and letting him in on shit he had already thought in his mind he should try to bring me down. he had held me on a pedistal and thought that was too good for him and he wanted to change that. so he started to basicly treat me like shit....he ditched me more offten then not to get drunk he would get soooooo shit faced that he would be drunk in the morning start a fight with me andforget about it by noon. like huge fights over nothing. HE also told me i was untrustworthy sneeky and that i made it hard for him to care about me. so luckily i wasnt my stupid self learned from past mistakes and have not talked to him in like a month...cold turkey.
and then there is John
The guy i moved in with. he has been everything to me since janurary. he has been there when i needed help he was just awesome and now that we both had to move home i feel as if its the beging to the end of an amazing friendship. I feel like heartbroken knowing at most i'll get to see him once a week. It sucks, some how he has become such a great friend and i am going to miss him more then life. I couldnt even put it into words how much i know i'll miss him. he has like become a part of me.
Every one i met these past few months ill miss too. we had such a great time. all the parties. all the blunts, and the times. Especially Kerri I know i'll see her less i am wicked sad cuz she has become a great friend in a short time :(
Then sammi i cant even explain how much i have put up with her. she treats her b/f like shit and i cant stand it...poor dave his fucking life is ruined. He should have worn a condom. Cuz she is prego. also dave should have dumped her a while ago.....seriously if she was my g/f i'd fucking kick the shit out of her. ki dont even like dave and she just ugh
I know this is an old subject but there is also is a Kurt factor in my life. i Know it has been almost 1.5 yrs but sometimes yes i do miss him. and its hard to know he is happy with some other girls able to cuddle and shit. I think its mostly cuz though the last person i had an in love cuddle with was him and i miss how being in love feels so i am trying to hold on to feelings that dont even exsist in me any more :(
I'm not looking foward to anything at the moment my job hours suck so bad and i keep gaining weight cuz i eat with my emotions and so basicly all i have been doing is eating. meh thats all