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I'm sorry if to you guys, it seems like I don't care. I do care. But I'm feeling way to numb, to dead, right now. I'm sorry, but thats the way it is.
I had a fun weekend. Tiring but fun.
I wish I had never met Gabe. I wish I had never fallen in love with him. But at the same time, I know that if I were to do my life over again, I wouldn't change meeting him or loving him. I just want to feel again, 24/7. Not once or twice a week. I'm so tired of all the hurt and confussion I do feel when the emotions actually come to life.
I want my mask back. I'm scared.
I had a fun weekend. Tiring but fun.
I wish I had never met Gabe. I wish I had never fallen in love with him. But at the same time, I know that if I were to do my life over again, I wouldn't change meeting him or loving him. I just want to feel again, 24/7. Not once or twice a week. I'm so tired of all the hurt and confussion I do feel when the emotions actually come to life.
I want my mask back. I'm scared.