I don't particularily want to feel right not. I fucked up so bad. I've totally lost all respect for myself. I don't even want to look in a mirror
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I'm sorry if I made you feel bad at all...I guess I was just lashing out, I say stupid things when I'm angry. And I wasn't even angry with you. Not in the least. Just the entire situation. I wouldn't have passed judgment on this at all if I hadn't been "dating" Jessie, you know?
You shouldn't be ashamed. The point is you had fun, no one got hurt (unless they consented, which is also fine and good fun), and I'm assuming you didn't get preggers. What's so awful about all that? Don't let that double standard keep you down. If you were a guy you'd be getting high-fives -- doesn't that seem wrong to you? In all honesty, fuck what people think. If they don't approve of your sex life, then they simply don't have to have sex with you.
I can only assume it made you feel good at the time. Focus on that feeling, and the bad things will dissipate.
If you can't do this, there is a solution: monitor yourself. Or have a buddy to make sure you don't act too wild at parties. The bottom line is, use your good judgment. Ask yourself before every sexual act -- "am I going to regret this in the morning?" If you have even a glimmering of a doubt, then don't do it.
If it means anything at all -- I, for one, haven't lost an ounce of respect for you. Being alone when you feel this awful isn't safe, so just let me know if you need some company or want to talk. I realize I don't know you well at all, but I'm here.♥
Thank you Kate...I thought for sure you hated me. I can understand lashing out, and it's ok. I deserved it.
It didn't feel very good at all because I was cheating on someone.
Thank you for everything you said. Thank you for not loosing respect for me. It all means so much. I'm just having a hard time dealing with this. Thank you. We should get to know each other better!
You shouldn't be ashamed. The point is you had fun, no one got hurt (unless they consented, which is also fine and good fun), and I'm assuming you didn't get preggers. What's so awful about all that? Don't let that double standard keep you down. If you were a guy you'd be getting high-fives -- doesn't that seem wrong to you? In all honesty, fuck what people think. If they don't approve of your sex life, then they simply don't have to have sex with you.
I can only assume it made you feel good at the time. Focus on that feeling, and the bad things will dissipate.
If you can't do this, there is a solution: monitor yourself. Or have a buddy to make sure you don't act too wild at parties. The bottom line is, use your good judgment. Ask yourself before every sexual act -- "am I going to regret this in the morning?" If you have even a glimmering of a doubt, then don't do it.
If it means anything at all -- I, for one, haven't lost an ounce of respect for you. Being alone when you feel this awful isn't safe, so just let me know if you need some company or want to talk. I realize I don't know you well at all, but I'm here.♥
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It didn't feel very good at all because I was cheating on someone.
Thank you for everything you said. Thank you for not loosing respect for me. It all means so much. I'm just having a hard time dealing with this. Thank you. We should get to know each other better!
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