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another forever entrie since i last updated.
So since last. I've lost my job, and i lost trust in my mother to some extent. I think I will just stop telling her things because she always seems to butt in and not leave things alone. My ex-boss was mad I lied to him about Michael, which who really cares, and then he told me if I wanted my job back I would have to work at building his trust back and not hang out with my friends and hang out with him outside of work more. Um, to me...that's creepy. So I declined taking my job back.
I am having a hard time with a certain friend situation. Because apparently no one trusts him, the more michael hears about this the more pissed he is and the more he wants me to hang out with this person less. It sucks though because I have fun with him and he's one of the few friends I do have in Ft. Wayne. But yeah...just bad shit keeps being said and I don't know what to do now.
New people moved in upstairs and they walk around so loud and last night michael and I were laying there and we could hear them having sex and their bed like pounding on the floor. I seriously feel like their apartment is going cave in on us.
Um, Elise is now dating Jordan who went to Goshen but he lives right across the way pretty much. Jordan's cool, I guess, I just am still getting used to him though. He's fun and funny. I don't know it's just weird going from someone you've known all your life who is dating your best friend to someone you don't know at all.
Lloyd came to visit me last weekend. That was nice. I missed him and seeing him was a good change. I miss the good old times. Jackson's, Checkerbury, JD's, hanging out, driving, job hunting, the summer, parties, zach and bryan's, chicago, prom, friday night hang outs, all of it...it's sad that all that is in the past now....
The only wierd thing was though when Elise and I were super cleaning the apartment, I was cleaning my room and getting clothes ready for goodwill and at the bottom of one of the boxes was like 3 of my past relationship box things. And in there was zach, well I opened it and just looking through it and I picked up a picture and was just staring at it when Elise walked into my room and was like "So, it's always wierd talking to brad on the phone, that was just him on the phone." and I looked up and showed her what I was holding and we both were just like....wierd.
I don't know Elise and I seem to have a lot of those episodes where we are like wearing the same thing and don't know it or we're thinking about the same thing, or just something like that. It's weird.
I faced two of my feared people over break (well unexpectedly) but it just threw me off but now that it's over, I think if I saw them again, we'd slowly stop the wierdness, maybe.
I don't know...a lot has gone on. I just don't know where to start. But what I do want...is to get better grades. So that's what I'm working on.
So since last. I've lost my job, and i lost trust in my mother to some extent. I think I will just stop telling her things because she always seems to butt in and not leave things alone. My ex-boss was mad I lied to him about Michael, which who really cares, and then he told me if I wanted my job back I would have to work at building his trust back and not hang out with my friends and hang out with him outside of work more. Um, to me...that's creepy. So I declined taking my job back.
I am having a hard time with a certain friend situation. Because apparently no one trusts him, the more michael hears about this the more pissed he is and the more he wants me to hang out with this person less. It sucks though because I have fun with him and he's one of the few friends I do have in Ft. Wayne. But yeah...just bad shit keeps being said and I don't know what to do now.
New people moved in upstairs and they walk around so loud and last night michael and I were laying there and we could hear them having sex and their bed like pounding on the floor. I seriously feel like their apartment is going cave in on us.
Um, Elise is now dating Jordan who went to Goshen but he lives right across the way pretty much. Jordan's cool, I guess, I just am still getting used to him though. He's fun and funny. I don't know it's just weird going from someone you've known all your life who is dating your best friend to someone you don't know at all.
Lloyd came to visit me last weekend. That was nice. I missed him and seeing him was a good change. I miss the good old times. Jackson's, Checkerbury, JD's, hanging out, driving, job hunting, the summer, parties, zach and bryan's, chicago, prom, friday night hang outs, all of it...it's sad that all that is in the past now....
The only wierd thing was though when Elise and I were super cleaning the apartment, I was cleaning my room and getting clothes ready for goodwill and at the bottom of one of the boxes was like 3 of my past relationship box things. And in there was zach, well I opened it and just looking through it and I picked up a picture and was just staring at it when Elise walked into my room and was like "So, it's always wierd talking to brad on the phone, that was just him on the phone." and I looked up and showed her what I was holding and we both were just like....wierd.
I don't know Elise and I seem to have a lot of those episodes where we are like wearing the same thing and don't know it or we're thinking about the same thing, or just something like that. It's weird.
I faced two of my feared people over break (well unexpectedly) but it just threw me off but now that it's over, I think if I saw them again, we'd slowly stop the wierdness, maybe.
I don't know...a lot has gone on. I just don't know where to start. But what I do want...is to get better grades. So that's what I'm working on.