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soooo thingss got pretty fucked up last night.. =\
i puked my complete guts out and had thee worst night ever. but i know this is gonna sound weird but im so glad it happened the way it did. today me and my mom had the best talk about everything. we got everything out possible. and its good iunno i just always felt that me and her werent completely honest but today we talked about everything like why i got drunk and all that stuff. and she talked about how she got really drunk n crashed her car in a ditch lol. but ya we just talked about everything. not only alcohol but like everything, boys sex drugs drinking smoking.. the lisst goes on. but ya it was a good talk and im just glad it all happened. ugh im talking to eric. aha i forgot i had a drunken conversation with andrea last night.. about him and his drugs and sex lmao. oh lord. maan all i remember last night was going outside.. puking my guts out.. getting andrews jacket somehow? then making an excuse that i was puking cause of mcdonalds?? and andrew getting kicked outta the girls bathroom. argh. what a fucked up night. all i have to say is nicole, cassy, andrew i love you all. i cant believe you sat there with me puking my guts out. ive never been so sick in my life. but yes.. it was just an interesting night all together.
so0o new topic? haha. i think/hope things are gonna get better with me and samara. i think they will. i really do. its going to be extremely awkward and weird and sad when we talk but it'll be good. ive now learned talking is amazingly helpful. i learned that today. but ya im glad.. things are kinda looking up now and its good. its like im outta that place where i feel so depressed and alone. i still kinda feel sad but not like.. really sad or lost and alone. im just.. feeling happier.. much happier. but ya i think im going to sleep now cuz i knoww i need it. lets hope i can get to school tomorrow?? and alex.. i should've listened to you but im also glad i didnt. things r gnna get better:) so yes thaats all people.
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i puked my complete guts out and had thee worst night ever. but i know this is gonna sound weird but im so glad it happened the way it did. today me and my mom had the best talk about everything. we got everything out possible. and its good iunno i just always felt that me and her werent completely honest but today we talked about everything like why i got drunk and all that stuff. and she talked about how she got really drunk n crashed her car in a ditch lol. but ya we just talked about everything. not only alcohol but like everything, boys sex drugs drinking smoking.. the lisst goes on. but ya it was a good talk and im just glad it all happened. ugh im talking to eric. aha i forgot i had a drunken conversation with andrea last night.. about him and his drugs and sex lmao. oh lord. maan all i remember last night was going outside.. puking my guts out.. getting andrews jacket somehow? then making an excuse that i was puking cause of mcdonalds?? and andrew getting kicked outta the girls bathroom. argh. what a fucked up night. all i have to say is nicole, cassy, andrew i love you all. i cant believe you sat there with me puking my guts out. ive never been so sick in my life. but yes.. it was just an interesting night all together.
so0o new topic? haha. i think/hope things are gonna get better with me and samara. i think they will. i really do. its going to be extremely awkward and weird and sad when we talk but it'll be good. ive now learned talking is amazingly helpful. i learned that today. but ya im glad.. things are kinda looking up now and its good. its like im outta that place where i feel so depressed and alone. i still kinda feel sad but not like.. really sad or lost and alone. im just.. feeling happier.. much happier. but ya i think im going to sleep now cuz i knoww i need it. lets hope i can get to school tomorrow?? and alex.. i should've listened to you but im also glad i didnt. things r gnna get better:) so yes thaats all people.
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