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is there any end to hate? people just go back and fourth on how they feel in this world. i have never been a fan of this. if i love something i love it forever. its a never ending thing for me. i always want it in my life. from ex's to my fav resturants that changed there menus. i still love all of this. its been hard for me to not be friends with amber. i wouldnt change anything i did but to be honest i just want to call her and have those conversations we used to have and i dont mean like lovey dovey shit i mean just the plain old friendship conversations. we could talk for hours. i know that if i tried to call her she would just use it againest me saying im trying to stalk her or make her life harder. i found this letter she stuck in my stuff and mostly it said mean stuff but little by little i noticed all the nice things she said. she has been pretty hateful about this situation. not saying she has no reason to be upset. she did. but regardless. i heard she has a new bf and she is in love. this makes me very happy to hear this. i hope this guy is better for her than me or i could have been. unlike amber i dont look at her as the bad points but the good ones i hope she does the same i do have love for amber. well i got your note amber and i hope you are happy i wish we could be friend even if you changed the menu.
as for my life. me and trin are doing well. she had her job interview today.
its was a group interview which she hated but i think she did fine. its weird us being together sometime especially in dreams. i know that sounds stupid but it makes sense to me. im done with magic and all that for now. my heart isnt in it. the cats drive me crazy in the morning. they are just not blazer. i love veda she is my girl butters i have no connection with. he is just animal in my house. i want to see old blaze. i wish they had visitations for animals. i go to court for that. trin has been sick this week it has me worried i want her to be ok. the doctor said she was fine other than not taking her meds. im actually in good health according to the doctors which is funny. i think that is so awesome that me shaun korb is considered to be in good health. i feel like i never eat ever. it sucks. our new bed is nice. if you ever feel like coming over do so. its an awesome bed. we need to get rid of stuff we have way to much of it as is. i dont want anything new. until we get rid of some shit. iam buying a computer this weekend so we can get the internet.
so to summerize my life and feelings. i dont like letting go of things. anything. all my old friends who are never around who i would be sad if they were i want them around. and my stuff i like my stuff but it does nothing for me. it just takes up space and messes up my life. im happy about being able to help my mom. its something i take great pride in. if you ever have a chance to help someone i suggest do it. if you ever have the chance to love someone special i suggest do so. im on my 2nd person who i have felt great love for and she is amazing amber was too dont get me wrong but they can never be compared in anyway. other than i loved amber and i love trin. its nice to not care who reads that i love trin. she is an amazing girl and you are suffering greatly if she is not in your life.
so good luck world. i dont know if any of this made sense and i dont care. and if i have horrible grammar and punctuation i dont care. if you hate me i dont care. this is how i feel. love life i do. make the best of what you can put together. im in love. i miss my past and im busy at work. bye.
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as for my life. me and trin are doing well. she had her job interview today.
its was a group interview which she hated but i think she did fine. its weird us being together sometime especially in dreams. i know that sounds stupid but it makes sense to me. im done with magic and all that for now. my heart isnt in it. the cats drive me crazy in the morning. they are just not blazer. i love veda she is my girl butters i have no connection with. he is just animal in my house. i want to see old blaze. i wish they had visitations for animals. i go to court for that. trin has been sick this week it has me worried i want her to be ok. the doctor said she was fine other than not taking her meds. im actually in good health according to the doctors which is funny. i think that is so awesome that me shaun korb is considered to be in good health. i feel like i never eat ever. it sucks. our new bed is nice. if you ever feel like coming over do so. its an awesome bed. we need to get rid of stuff we have way to much of it as is. i dont want anything new. until we get rid of some shit. iam buying a computer this weekend so we can get the internet.
so to summerize my life and feelings. i dont like letting go of things. anything. all my old friends who are never around who i would be sad if they were i want them around. and my stuff i like my stuff but it does nothing for me. it just takes up space and messes up my life. im happy about being able to help my mom. its something i take great pride in. if you ever have a chance to help someone i suggest do it. if you ever have the chance to love someone special i suggest do so. im on my 2nd person who i have felt great love for and she is amazing amber was too dont get me wrong but they can never be compared in anyway. other than i loved amber and i love trin. its nice to not care who reads that i love trin. she is an amazing girl and you are suffering greatly if she is not in your life.
so good luck world. i dont know if any of this made sense and i dont care. and if i have horrible grammar and punctuation i dont care. if you hate me i dont care. this is how i feel. love life i do. make the best of what you can put together. im in love. i miss my past and im busy at work. bye.
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