random remenising about gymanstics
SO as I periodically do, I decided to watch rhythmic videos, now I'm all depressed and missing gymnastics, missing competitions, missing being graceful and coordinated. Being able to have full controll ver my body and my mind. i know its not good to regret things, but at times like these, I really regret not continuing with gymnastics after the fall out of group, when I was at my best, when I was better than most of the people on the National team. Instead I let my feelings and emotions take over, went into a state of depression, and basicaly stopped functioning. The only thing I could do was eat and cry because my destiny was taken away from me. How I wish now that I would have gotten myself together and continued for at least one more year, at least to finish the season. To have a somewhat normal finish of my gymnastics career. I think I regret not doing this the most.....