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Hmm where do I start, I dunno how to start, I’ll start by saying right now I’m in “prime mood”… I’m feeling very “open” right now… and “happy”… and medicated. I don’t care.. this is the reason why I live my life and I love it.
Anyways, I’ll start by saying at this point, I do not care
& also that the number 22 turned into 23 unexpectedly the other night. I’m willingly talking about this because I’ve also came to the conclusion, not just tonight but the night in buffalo when midget & I had our epiphanies ( I won’t get into that but if you wanna know more go read midgets entry about it.. she described it perfectly.) But anyways, that night we realized we don’t care what other people think of us, besides our close friends... our true friends. we discovered who they are, what we want and our new found optimism.
& here is a hint, if I talk to you willingly or you have no doubt in your mind I like you, you’re right. But if you don’t think I do.. and I don’t put forth effort to talk to you.. well then out of luck I guess.
Whatever.
I think I’m having another epiphany.
I’m not going to lie, lately my life has not been that great… but it has progressively been getting better.
I’m keeping my true friends, saying what I feel, doing what I want, and getting drunk on a regular basis not like that’s any different than before but now I’m having more fun doing so, because of my surroundings.
I’ve also given up looking for a boyfriend, but don’t take the term “giving up” as lose of hope, it’s not that anymore, I really just don’t care… I realized I have better things to worry about and its not like I’m unfortunate in having a boy when I want one…cuz there are no challenges, HA! So I’m just not worrying about it anymore.
Plus there is this one boy, I’ve known, who to my friendship will never leave. & I’m cool with that, cause we’re cool with each other, and I’m comfortable and totally love the idea of us just always being able to hangout with nothing more, cause we’ve tried all that other stuff before. He’s someone I can always talk to, and finally now after almost 4 years of knowing him we’ve reached a point where we know we’ll always be good. I know this for a fact because every time I get off the phone with him or see him or something I'm in a good mood.. and not in a weird way, in a you’re my buddy way. Yeah there were times I “hated” him and got really upset over him, but that’s done cause we were ( I was more ) trying for the wrong thing. You probably all know who I’m talking about too... and midgey I know you dislike him haha and everyone else sees the bad sides to him, but I’m telling you all how I feel about this, and he’s my buddy yo! so that’s the end of that story.
On a random note I’m listening to from autumn to ashes right now… and I just thought about how midget and I screw up autumns monologue and the fiction we live… so bad when we try to sing it mixed into one.
So there’s a Renouf / psyopus show this saturday at steel. And I’m excited cuz I had to work that night… and my schedule changed without me asking which rules, cause I’m going now. woooo! IT’D BETTER BE FUCKING NICE OUT….. I love this 60 degree weather.
Sidenote bertolone is a d-bag hahahahaha
So anyways pretty much the rest of my night is going to consist of me enjoying my life until this wears off…waiting for my buddy to call, not sleeping, probably showering at some point too cause I haven’t in seriously almost 5 days, yeah hate me I’m gross. I’m even gonna wash my hair tonight!
Well there you have it kids, I haven’t updated like this in a while, don’t expect another one like this til you shower me with stimulants.
Comment I wanna hear from you fuckers.
Hahaha no Lj cut here….
Anyways, I’ll start by saying at this point, I do not care
& also that the number 22 turned into 23 unexpectedly the other night. I’m willingly talking about this because I’ve also came to the conclusion, not just tonight but the night in buffalo when midget & I had our epiphanies ( I won’t get into that but if you wanna know more go read midgets entry about it.. she described it perfectly.) But anyways, that night we realized we don’t care what other people think of us, besides our close friends... our true friends. we discovered who they are, what we want and our new found optimism.
& here is a hint, if I talk to you willingly or you have no doubt in your mind I like you, you’re right. But if you don’t think I do.. and I don’t put forth effort to talk to you.. well then out of luck I guess.
Whatever.
I think I’m having another epiphany.
I’m not going to lie, lately my life has not been that great… but it has progressively been getting better.
I’m keeping my true friends, saying what I feel, doing what I want, and getting drunk on a regular basis not like that’s any different than before but now I’m having more fun doing so, because of my surroundings.
I’ve also given up looking for a boyfriend, but don’t take the term “giving up” as lose of hope, it’s not that anymore, I really just don’t care… I realized I have better things to worry about and its not like I’m unfortunate in having a boy when I want one…cuz there are no challenges, HA! So I’m just not worrying about it anymore.
Plus there is this one boy, I’ve known, who to my friendship will never leave. & I’m cool with that, cause we’re cool with each other, and I’m comfortable and totally love the idea of us just always being able to hangout with nothing more, cause we’ve tried all that other stuff before. He’s someone I can always talk to, and finally now after almost 4 years of knowing him we’ve reached a point where we know we’ll always be good. I know this for a fact because every time I get off the phone with him or see him or something I'm in a good mood.. and not in a weird way, in a you’re my buddy way. Yeah there were times I “hated” him and got really upset over him, but that’s done cause we were ( I was more ) trying for the wrong thing. You probably all know who I’m talking about too... and midgey I know you dislike him haha and everyone else sees the bad sides to him, but I’m telling you all how I feel about this, and he’s my buddy yo! so that’s the end of that story.
On a random note I’m listening to from autumn to ashes right now… and I just thought about how midget and I screw up autumns monologue and the fiction we live… so bad when we try to sing it mixed into one.
So there’s a Renouf / psyopus show this saturday at steel. And I’m excited cuz I had to work that night… and my schedule changed without me asking which rules, cause I’m going now. woooo! IT’D BETTER BE FUCKING NICE OUT….. I love this 60 degree weather.
Sidenote bertolone is a d-bag hahahahaha
So anyways pretty much the rest of my night is going to consist of me enjoying my life until this wears off…waiting for my buddy to call, not sleeping, probably showering at some point too cause I haven’t in seriously almost 5 days, yeah hate me I’m gross. I’m even gonna wash my hair tonight!
Well there you have it kids, I haven’t updated like this in a while, don’t expect another one like this til you shower me with stimulants.
Comment I wanna hear from you fuckers.
Hahaha no Lj cut here….