Home again home again
I'm back from my trip to california and I've been home for awhile. I'll give a quick recap of what I can remember.
Madi and I followed my ex in laws. I don't know how often they google their names and I'm not ready for them to find this journal yet, so I'll call pop-in-law A and mom-in-law T
The trip to Sonora was pretty uneventful. I didn't get lost like I thought I would and madi is a really good navigator. We stopped in Bakersfied for dinner with A and T before going on to Barstow for the night. The conversation was easy and relaxed. T only made one comment that was meant to make me remember my place in the family now, but I didn't let her know I picked up on it. We get along much better as friends than we ever did as family because now I don't have to run every decision past them for approval. So we're sitting in the restaurant and like I said it was easy and relaxed so my brain decided to turn off and my mouth decided to have some fun. I asked T if she still takes the grand kids to see The Nutcracker at Christmas time. She said no and then my mouth asked her if she would like to come see The Forgotten Carols with Madi and me. The words were out before I could stop them my brain was scrambling trying to find a way to get the words back or think of something she could have heard instead, but no, too late she already said yes. And my mouth just sat there with a smirk, so now I need to think of a couple hours of small talk. Even though we get along now I still need to keep the conversation superficial and we can't talk about the past at all. So wish me luck.
Megan's memorial service was really sweet. The chapel was packed with friends and family. Seth, Meg's brother, reminded us that Meg loved a performance and it's just like her to have 3 memorial services. There was one in Buffalo where she and Ryan lived, one in Ryan's hometown where Meg's body is buried, and then the service in Sonora. We laughed and we cried. I cried my face off. Hooray for waterproof mascara.
After the service I stayed for a little while to say hi to everyone. I talked to my ex, we'll call him J, and his girlfriend. I invited her to come see The Forgotten Carols too. You'd think that would be uncomfortable but the thought of J worrying about what his ex and his current would be talking about all evening makes it worth it.
When I just couldn't take all the people anymore Madi and I took off for home and ended up in Disneyland. The weather was nice, but it was so terribly crowded it was hard to enjoy ourselves. The whole park was decked out for Christmas. The Haunted Mansion was decorated in Nightmare Before Christmas style. It was quite festive, but try a I might I couldn't stop thinking about Meg and her family. There's not a roller coaster fast enough to help me outrun my troubles and sorrow.
I have more to say but my phone battery is dying. I'll come back to this later. Be good and kiss the kids for me.
Madi and I followed my ex in laws. I don't know how often they google their names and I'm not ready for them to find this journal yet, so I'll call pop-in-law A and mom-in-law T
The trip to Sonora was pretty uneventful. I didn't get lost like I thought I would and madi is a really good navigator. We stopped in Bakersfied for dinner with A and T before going on to Barstow for the night. The conversation was easy and relaxed. T only made one comment that was meant to make me remember my place in the family now, but I didn't let her know I picked up on it. We get along much better as friends than we ever did as family because now I don't have to run every decision past them for approval. So we're sitting in the restaurant and like I said it was easy and relaxed so my brain decided to turn off and my mouth decided to have some fun. I asked T if she still takes the grand kids to see The Nutcracker at Christmas time. She said no and then my mouth asked her if she would like to come see The Forgotten Carols with Madi and me. The words were out before I could stop them my brain was scrambling trying to find a way to get the words back or think of something she could have heard instead, but no, too late she already said yes. And my mouth just sat there with a smirk, so now I need to think of a couple hours of small talk. Even though we get along now I still need to keep the conversation superficial and we can't talk about the past at all. So wish me luck.
Megan's memorial service was really sweet. The chapel was packed with friends and family. Seth, Meg's brother, reminded us that Meg loved a performance and it's just like her to have 3 memorial services. There was one in Buffalo where she and Ryan lived, one in Ryan's hometown where Meg's body is buried, and then the service in Sonora. We laughed and we cried. I cried my face off. Hooray for waterproof mascara.
After the service I stayed for a little while to say hi to everyone. I talked to my ex, we'll call him J, and his girlfriend. I invited her to come see The Forgotten Carols too. You'd think that would be uncomfortable but the thought of J worrying about what his ex and his current would be talking about all evening makes it worth it.
When I just couldn't take all the people anymore Madi and I took off for home and ended up in Disneyland. The weather was nice, but it was so terribly crowded it was hard to enjoy ourselves. The whole park was decked out for Christmas. The Haunted Mansion was decorated in Nightmare Before Christmas style. It was quite festive, but try a I might I couldn't stop thinking about Meg and her family. There's not a roller coaster fast enough to help me outrun my troubles and sorrow.
I have more to say but my phone battery is dying. I'll come back to this later. Be good and kiss the kids for me.