a good nights sleep
the song from the starting line just popped into my head... ya know a good nights sleep.
Well i finally dropped the girl i care about back home. Actually, i just told her that since she nevers knows what she wants out of the two of us, that she can figure it out and contact me later. I already know where I stand, and it has gotten to the point where I just feel like I am being taken for granted and kept around as a fall back boy. I would like to spend the rest of my life with her, be something close to her, that is my big LIKE, but if push comes to shove, i can be a friend... or even nothing at all. She knows that, I have told her that before, but she keeps doing the childish thing of "oh, i just don't really know yet". Yeah well you have had several years to think about and plenty of opportunities, decide and let me know. I wish i could have told it to her personally, not through her voice mail, but she refused to pick up. Fuck it. No more calling her, no more writing, no more spending time thinking about how much i miss her. Move on, she has to make the choice now. Either she writes me back or just lets it go. Either way, I'm prepared to deal with what ever response. Still sucks and hurts your heart. But thus is lifei suppose.
Talked to my family though, that helped. Sounds like everyone is doing well. My god son is a handful and i can't wait to see him again. Again... whenever that is supposed to be. I hate knowing that I have to watch him get older in pictures. He's the cutest little monster. My sister, step brother, god son, cousins and aunt wil be visiting my mother in about 4 weeks, but of course i won't be there. That would be fun if i could make it. Drink my absinthe, chill with some family, tell a few censored sea stories. Ahhhhhh.
Well, k-lo if you read this, hope you are doing well friend. You are living the good life now. I will be home soon enough and then me and you are tearing washington up! partying all night and raising hell all day, FORGET WORK!!!
laterz
Well i finally dropped the girl i care about back home. Actually, i just told her that since she nevers knows what she wants out of the two of us, that she can figure it out and contact me later. I already know where I stand, and it has gotten to the point where I just feel like I am being taken for granted and kept around as a fall back boy. I would like to spend the rest of my life with her, be something close to her, that is my big LIKE, but if push comes to shove, i can be a friend... or even nothing at all. She knows that, I have told her that before, but she keeps doing the childish thing of "oh, i just don't really know yet". Yeah well you have had several years to think about and plenty of opportunities, decide and let me know. I wish i could have told it to her personally, not through her voice mail, but she refused to pick up. Fuck it. No more calling her, no more writing, no more spending time thinking about how much i miss her. Move on, she has to make the choice now. Either she writes me back or just lets it go. Either way, I'm prepared to deal with what ever response. Still sucks and hurts your heart. But thus is lifei suppose.
Talked to my family though, that helped. Sounds like everyone is doing well. My god son is a handful and i can't wait to see him again. Again... whenever that is supposed to be. I hate knowing that I have to watch him get older in pictures. He's the cutest little monster. My sister, step brother, god son, cousins and aunt wil be visiting my mother in about 4 weeks, but of course i won't be there. That would be fun if i could make it. Drink my absinthe, chill with some family, tell a few censored sea stories. Ahhhhhh.
Well, k-lo if you read this, hope you are doing well friend. You are living the good life now. I will be home soon enough and then me and you are tearing washington up! partying all night and raising hell all day, FORGET WORK!!!
laterz