screw this piece of crap.

[stjudedoorway]

lets not forget who left who
and for why.
I'm tired of crying in my car every night that i drive
home from work to nothing.
i am tired of loving you
and I'm tired of missing you
and all of it for why?
all i get from you is a fucking cold shoulder.
it occurred to me
why the fuck I left you.
and, its like i totally forgot about the
many secrets you kept from me
and all of your little "harmless" friendships.
and all the times you pushed me away
and how fucking good i was to you.
it just happened to occur to me
that you just made the biggest fucking mistake
of your life.
and i did the smartest thing I've ever done in my whole life.
there are so many things i gave to you
and gave up for you-
and you didn't deserve half of them.
and if you can EVEN think for one fucking second that you are hurting
ANYTHING comparable to what you've put me through
presently
orhave put me through in the past..
well then wake the fuck up.
you put yourself there.
whoever you were-
or never were-
or whoever i made you up to be in my head.
is nothing but a ghost to me now.