Here it goes again...

[stjimmy07]

In my dreams,I scream.I scream for help.I can't find anyone out there to help me.There is no light.Its just darkness.With a tear rolling down my face.Screaming out for help.No one is answering back.Maybe its just no one cares.Maybe no one hears me.Maybe no one can see it.I just get pulled into the darkness.Screaming is what I do in the dark.I wish someone could hear me.I wish anyone could see the pain I am going through.I don't like to show it so it is impossible for someone to see that pain.My life has only been a joke to people.All my life I was made fun of.Always pushed around,never accepted for who I am.I just wish it would all stop.It's like I'm on a Road to Acceptence.But I will never make it to the end.So I give up on it.I will just take a different path.A path I have never seen before.Its new.Sometimes I feel like running down this path.Maybe its the right path.But maybe again its a bad one.Maybe I will choose the wrong one again like usual.All I do is ruin my own life.No one can do it.I am the only one who controls me and I just do it to myself.Why do I try to help myself.All I do is find myself lost in the darkness,screaming for help.The help that ain't there.

Maybe I'm stupid.Maybe I am someone who can't control his feelings.I am sure thoughts like that are going through your head.But you know.I don't get sleep.I don't eat a lot anymore.I am just giving up on keeping myself healthy.I'll just see what happens if I keep all this up.I am just a depressing fool.I know it.You don't need to tell me.But if you think I am,be happy to tell me.Because I want to see how many people think that.I am just all broken inside,nothing there to motivate me to be all jumpy.Well I guess I am all done with this for now.

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