after school knife fight.
i haven't updated in ages.
i've had alot of things going through my mind lately. some bad. some good; some just amazing. i've made some good friends, and broke some old ones. had some good days, and some not so great ones. all in all i find myself in a pretty good mood. which is something i haven't felt in quite a long time. for the past few months it's seemed like this entire town has been crumbling at my feet. and things finally seem to be starting to pick up again, all at once. i wonder how long this will last. i'm going to try to make the most of it either way. i figure it deserves one more chance; and i figure i owe it to some people, even if they might not think so. so i've dropped the anchor one last time. the only difference is that this time i plan on doing things right. -no, a bad choice of words. i will do things right this time, if only for you. i won't give up as long as you're by my side. and that's a promise i plan on keeping. starting
13 thoughts. 13 livejournal friends. want to take a lucky guess?
1.) i miss you.
i don't know what happened. with me. or you. i don't know where things went astray. but i'm sorry. i've been so lost in everything. sometimes it seems easier to just turn your back and run away than to face the greater challenge at hand. maybe it was easier. for awile. but i think the aftershock is catching up. and i realize what's been done. and i don't know what to do. i miss you so much. and yet your sweet blue eyes stare right through me. slowly eating away. it breaks my heart.
2.) i haven't talked to you in awile. and honestly, i'm not sure i want to. you fucked me over pretty bad. and i hold a wicked grudge.
3.) the last few weeks we've hung out i have had such a great time. you are such an amazing girl. you set a boy's heart on fire. i'm glad we got to know each other better. i wonder where i'd be without having met you. not here. that's for sure.
4.) my emotions towards you are very mixed; you've caused many problems. serious problems. and i don't think i forgive you. but life moves on.
5.) we hardly ever seem to talk anymore. i miss hanging out with you. you should come into town more often! i'm glad you finally got what you've been chasing after all this time. i hope everything ends up working out for you.
6.) i'm at a loss of words for you. we've had some amazing times together. and we've had some rough times apart. i sometimes wonder if it was the other way around.
7.) if i were gayif you were here right now, i would so be making out with you.
8.) i'm glad the two of us got things worked out. i really wasn't enjoying my disliking toward you very much. it's good to see us working side by side again.
9.) dude, you're seriously weird as crap. and i love you for it.
10.) i've become very dissapointed in you in recent weeks. im not pissed, i just think you need to get your priorities straight. you derailed and forgot to hit the breaks. slow it down, chief.
11.) i can't stand you. really. just ask around.
12.) i haven't seen you two in forever. stop reading this and come visit me. now.
13.) i love you a whole lot <3 we deffinitly need to hang out more often. or at least talk more. i believe we still have a coffee date. haha.
i've had alot of things going through my mind lately. some bad. some good; some just amazing. i've made some good friends, and broke some old ones. had some good days, and some not so great ones. all in all i find myself in a pretty good mood. which is something i haven't felt in quite a long time. for the past few months it's seemed like this entire town has been crumbling at my feet. and things finally seem to be starting to pick up again, all at once. i wonder how long this will last. i'm going to try to make the most of it either way. i figure it deserves one more chance; and i figure i owe it to some people, even if they might not think so. so i've dropped the anchor one last time. the only difference is that this time i plan on doing things right. -no, a bad choice of words. i will do things right this time, if only for you. i won't give up as long as you're by my side. and that's a promise i plan on keeping. starting
13 thoughts. 13 livejournal friends. want to take a lucky guess?
1.) i miss you.
i don't know what happened. with me. or you. i don't know where things went astray. but i'm sorry. i've been so lost in everything. sometimes it seems easier to just turn your back and run away than to face the greater challenge at hand. maybe it was easier. for awile. but i think the aftershock is catching up. and i realize what's been done. and i don't know what to do. i miss you so much. and yet your sweet blue eyes stare right through me. slowly eating away. it breaks my heart.
2.) i haven't talked to you in awile. and honestly, i'm not sure i want to. you fucked me over pretty bad. and i hold a wicked grudge.
3.) the last few weeks we've hung out i have had such a great time. you are such an amazing girl. you set a boy's heart on fire. i'm glad we got to know each other better. i wonder where i'd be without having met you. not here. that's for sure.
4.) my emotions towards you are very mixed; you've caused many problems. serious problems. and i don't think i forgive you. but life moves on.
5.) we hardly ever seem to talk anymore. i miss hanging out with you. you should come into town more often! i'm glad you finally got what you've been chasing after all this time. i hope everything ends up working out for you.
6.) i'm at a loss of words for you. we've had some amazing times together. and we've had some rough times apart. i sometimes wonder if it was the other way around.
7.) if i were gayif you were here right now, i would so be making out with you.
8.) i'm glad the two of us got things worked out. i really wasn't enjoying my disliking toward you very much. it's good to see us working side by side again.
9.) dude, you're seriously weird as crap. and i love you for it.
10.) i've become very dissapointed in you in recent weeks. im not pissed, i just think you need to get your priorities straight. you derailed and forgot to hit the breaks. slow it down, chief.
11.) i can't stand you. really. just ask around.
12.) i haven't seen you two in forever. stop reading this and come visit me. now.
13.) i love you a whole lot <3 we deffinitly need to hang out more often. or at least talk more. i believe we still have a coffee date. haha.