it was vile and it was cheap
i feel discouraged
i wish i knew what was going on in my own life, except for the fact that i cant really make anybody happy, i am me, it doesnt seem to be good enough, i know i'm not all that handsome, i know i'm not all that cool, i know i'm nothing very special, and i have expirienced what its like to try your hardest and get absolutley nothing but a kick in the face for it, i am weird i know, i cant stand it myself for my brain drives me crazy, i love art, and i hate sports, i wish i was someone else so i could see myself from another prospective, i am somewhat self concious, i dont want to be popular, i just wish that someone really cared about me, i get shot down alot, it's the basis of my life, i am not what my parents were looking for, i am a music junkie, and i like feelings, i wish someone would intrust themselves in me, i wish i was that important to somebody, i wish i was the person that brightened someones day and lit up their face, i wish i knew that i was important and that i meant something to someone..truly, sometimes i cant handle my own mind and sit in my room and cry, i feel like my mind is corrupted with some sort of disease that no one else has to live with, i feel scratchy, i feel unwanted, unloved, and there certain things i live for, i wish my life made me happy, for when it does it is amazing, i guess i'm not much of a pleaser, but i was born and i have to live through it, i am a confused person and i wish people would just come out and say what is going on, i am sick of this guessing game i play, i hope alot, and i tell myself that things will be Okay and i plan things out in my head, i guess you could say i am sick of putting myself out there and wish that someone would put themselves out there for me, when ever i go out on a limb for someone they fuck me over and i cant stand liars, if i have to, crying myself to sleep, getting my hopes up and getting a knife in the face; dealing with my abnormalities, is an alright thing for me, i want something more, but if i can keep someones attention long enough to get it is something that time will tell.
Dustin
i wish i knew what was going on in my own life, except for the fact that i cant really make anybody happy, i am me, it doesnt seem to be good enough, i know i'm not all that handsome, i know i'm not all that cool, i know i'm nothing very special, and i have expirienced what its like to try your hardest and get absolutley nothing but a kick in the face for it, i am weird i know, i cant stand it myself for my brain drives me crazy, i love art, and i hate sports, i wish i was someone else so i could see myself from another prospective, i am somewhat self concious, i dont want to be popular, i just wish that someone really cared about me, i get shot down alot, it's the basis of my life, i am not what my parents were looking for, i am a music junkie, and i like feelings, i wish someone would intrust themselves in me, i wish i was that important to somebody, i wish i was the person that brightened someones day and lit up their face, i wish i knew that i was important and that i meant something to someone..truly, sometimes i cant handle my own mind and sit in my room and cry, i feel like my mind is corrupted with some sort of disease that no one else has to live with, i feel scratchy, i feel unwanted, unloved, and there certain things i live for, i wish my life made me happy, for when it does it is amazing, i guess i'm not much of a pleaser, but i was born and i have to live through it, i am a confused person and i wish people would just come out and say what is going on, i am sick of this guessing game i play, i hope alot, and i tell myself that things will be Okay and i plan things out in my head, i guess you could say i am sick of putting myself out there and wish that someone would put themselves out there for me, when ever i go out on a limb for someone they fuck me over and i cant stand liars, if i have to, crying myself to sleep, getting my hopes up and getting a knife in the face; dealing with my abnormalities, is an alright thing for me, i want something more, but if i can keep someones attention long enough to get it is something that time will tell.
Dustin