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facebook is a double-edged sword. i'm reconnecting with all these people i knew from so many years ago - high school, mostly - that i was such great friends with and have so many fond memories of. but in those eight years since we graduated and went our separate ways, so much has changed. i still have some fond memories since then - the first year of uni had quite a few - but after that it all just fell off the rails. i know i'm mostly to blame. dropping out of uni and shutting myself off from the world certainly didn't help anything, but i'm looking at wedding photos and baby photos and feeling so far removed from all these people that i once knew. people that are still such close friends and force themselves to catch up over a coffee if they go a week without seeing each other and have these great bonds that span their whole lives. and now i'm wondering if i'm ever going to have those kinds of friendships again. we send messages, make some basic enquiries as to where they live, where they work, etc. but there's nothing more than that. we're never going to be close again. i'm so thrilled to get in touch with them and catch up on their lives, but mostly i'm just sad.