Twilight
Do you ever feel like you are going to be alone forever? That's how I feel.. especially at times like this. Times when no one is awake, to tell me how stupid my theories are. Sometimes you just know. I just know.
I sound disgustingly emo, but I can't really help that. It's hard not to be this way when I'm all alone. I just don't feel like anyone will ever love me. I don't think I will ever give them the chance. I always chicken out when I start to feel something. I'm one of those people who will push someone until they leave me, and then kick and scream to get them back. It's gross.
I don't know why I do these things, exactly, I just do them. I want to be loved, don't get me wrong. But I always imagined this hectic, difficult, exciting love.. and I know that will never happen. So I will never be satisfied. Not until I meet someone who knows what I need, and I doubt the possibility of that. I really do.
Sometimes, I think I was just meant to hurt.
"In case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see, this is my heart bleeding before you.. this is Me down on my knees..."
I sound disgustingly emo, but I can't really help that. It's hard not to be this way when I'm all alone. I just don't feel like anyone will ever love me. I don't think I will ever give them the chance. I always chicken out when I start to feel something. I'm one of those people who will push someone until they leave me, and then kick and scream to get them back. It's gross.
I don't know why I do these things, exactly, I just do them. I want to be loved, don't get me wrong. But I always imagined this hectic, difficult, exciting love.. and I know that will never happen. So I will never be satisfied. Not until I meet someone who knows what I need, and I doubt the possibility of that. I really do.
Sometimes, I think I was just meant to hurt.
"In case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see, this is my heart bleeding before you.. this is Me down on my knees..."